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*currently listening to Mary on a Cross by Ghost* I think I..
🕑 Added 2023-03-26 22:21:57 +0000 UTC *currently listening to Mary on a Cross by Ghost* I think I have Netflix playing 24 hours of every day. Genuinely. I've got Brooklyn 99 playing constantly. I have it on when I sleep, I leave it on when I go out so it's on when I come home, I watch it while I eat, while I work, while I write. Basically I have it on all the time and I can't seem to function without it playing in the background. (I say this but it's taken me 10x longer to write this post because I keep getting distracted by the episode that's on.) I've always liked background noise but before prison I used to listen to music all the time. I love music. I love how older songs make me feel like I'm swooning in love. I love how certain pop songs take me back to summer holidays between school terms. I like how new music stops me in my tracks and forces me to enjoy new sounds. I love how one day in the future these new discovered songs will remind me of these days and I hope to smile reflectively. Point is, the entertainment we take in consciously affects us significantly. It alters our self esteem, it influences our consumption habits and impacts how we see the world and each other. I think I've underestimated the impact having TV on 24.7. It's a crutch, and stops me being reflective. Music guides us as much as it holds us. I want to feel things. I want to be distracted by happiness and energy. I want to sit and listen to a song for 3 minutes and melt into nostalgia. I don't want to rely on listening to the same thing/the same episode and series over and over again. I'm not opening myself up to new feelings and I'm not inviting new thoughts. Does this make sense? Essentially I'm using a TV series for company. The constant chatter distracts me from using my imagination and from daydreaming. I'm going to get back into music. Give me your favourite bands. Share with me your favourite songs. Do you make playlists? Let's have a listen! Swipe ➡️ to dance with me. ❤️
