so i was weak and redownloaded a dating app. it's called "ha..
🕑 Added 2021-08-10 20:57:59 +0000 UTC
so i was weak and redownloaded a dating app. it's called "happn" and it only shows you people you have crossed paths with (who obvs also have the app.)
i'm quite an emotional person. obviously quite sexual too, but the last few sexual encounters i've had lacked something and i've realised it's connection. i miss getting into someone's head and vice versa. i miss having a team mate.
but every time i talk to a guy, the conversation gets sexual very quickly and i don't need it or *want* it. i have sexual conversations 24.7, with you guys, and in an odd way, i prefer it with the people here who subscribe to me because there is a mutual respect.
i have a fair few subscribers who i genuinely care about and when i give them pleasure, it makes me happy. i think on onlyfans we all know why we are here, so there is no room for bullshit or disrespect. boundaries are well set and expectations are fairly obvious.
but with dating, ugh, it is weird to match with men and so quickly allow it to become sexual. i'm not charging them, but it still feels like work, almost? yet, without the respect i described above. does this make sense?
i think i want to be swooned and then for the sexual chemistry to grow simultaneously. can someone tell me i am not mad for wanting this?
