I was told yesterday and today so adamantly that I had a sce..
🕑 Added 2018-02-15 07:20:49 +0000 UTC
I was told yesterday and today so adamantly that I had a scene tomorrow that I went and spent $155 on a test. When I finally got ahold of the photographer he said "Nope, that's a miscommunication. We are shooting another model at 1. If male talent can handle two scenes we will shoot you."
I told him that I am currently not planning on being on set tomorrow, because, if this is my first scene in a year and half...I do not want to be sloppy seconds on camera. That may be high maintenance. I don't know. But I have WORKED too HARD on myself and my appearance to do my first scene in a year and half on "maybe if there's time and the talent is up for it"
FIRST OF ALL. If the talent has already popped, that means he's going to have a smaller pop for my scene. He's going to be tired. For my first scene in a year and a half to be with a guy who is tired and is going to blow a small load? No. No. No. NO. I have been through too much to get handed a sloppy seconds scene on a "maybe". If I do a scene it needs to be with fresh rested talent ready to make good content. I want my scene to be successful! I want it to look good! It's my first scene in over a year!!!!!
So. I'm upset, and, I told the photographer I am not planning on coming to set.
The photographer will go and say "see? She is so hard to work with. High maintenance. Was given a great opportunity and turned it down. Thinks she's a bigger fish than she it." and you know what? Fine. They've been treating me like garbage for a year already. Who fucking cares. I take my own pictures now and I make my own videos. You're seeing them on here.
Thank you so much for being here <3
