I’ve been meaning to make a statement on this for a while bu..
🕑 Added 2021-05-03 22:57:37 +0000 UTC
I’ve been meaning to make a statement on this for a while but I’ve been putting it off so now it’s long. I didn’t want to make a “I’m fine“ post until I meant it. But yea sorry for the novel, I’ll just get into it now. Y’all, I’m really sorry that I haven’t put out a new full set on a while. I had some seriously traumatic shit happen in my personal life, and that combined with my hardest semester of law school finals left me an absolute wreck. My worst mental health episode in a long time. One of the reasons I’ve been putting off shooting is that I’ve lost a ton of weight. I don’t want to say the exact number because that type of information can be super triggering to other people but it’s a big number for my size. I went through about a three+ week period where I just couldn’t keep food down at all. I was actually preparing to go to a doctor but I’ve improved a bit so it’s getting better. I’ve done a much better job of being proactive with it for a week or so now so I promise I’m OK. I’m just super self-conscious about it right now. Ive spent the last like 6 months working really hard to put on some weight and I feel like I backslid like crazy. It’s really noticeable to me as somebody who constantly has to see pictures of my body. It’s been affecting me a lot mentally and it’s been discouraging me from shooting. On the bright side, I bit the bullet and finally shot something and it turned out so much better than I had hoped. While it was still really triggering to see how much weight I’ve lost, the photos turned out so hot and I really needed that. It’s very casual, no make up, nothing fancy, it’s actually kinda quickie themed. Like the feeling where you just can’t keep your hands off your partner and you fuck on the floor the second you get home. Essentially, I was already in the mood, I opened my apartment door and saw my ottoman and was like “I want to get fucked on that like right now” and my business brain was like “ go grab your camera bitch 😎”. I’ll post a preview tonight and I’ll probably post the full thing tomorrow. But yeah, Ive been putting off saying something about how I’ve been feeling for a while and I felt that I should probably say something and acknowledge it before I posted pics that show the loss. It’s been easy enough for me to hide it in the few new photos I’ve posted in the last month but it’s definitely going to be visible in a full set with all my angles, especially because its got implied nudes. And tbh I might be being dramatic here. I’ve never been a good judge of what I look like it might not be as noticeable as I think. There’s a very real chance I am being needlessly hard on myself but to me it’s pretty noticeable. I would’ve felt weird posting it without saying something first to let you guys know I’m OK and actually doing a LOT better now that I’ve shot something that I look nice in. In hindsight, I wish I would’ve taken more photos in the “undressing stage” because the vast majority of pics in the set are things I absolutely cannot post for free but I’ll give you some of the less XXX rated ones in just a minute. Thanks for your patience with me. I’m doing better every day
