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ππ‘π² π π§π¨ π₯π¨π§π ππ« πππ₯π₯ π¦π²π¬ππ₯π π π¬π°π’πππ‘ β―οΈ For a while I was pr..
🕑 Added 2024-07-15 16:00:25 +0000 UTC ππ‘π² π π§π¨ π₯π¨π§π ππ« πππ₯π₯ π¦π²π¬ππ₯π π π¬π°π’πππ‘ β―οΈFor a while I was presenting myself as a switch. It was because I always tended to choose in term of sex more dominant men irl, but fall for Femdom online. However, lately Iβve realised that (also) due to my passion for Femdom Iβm finding myself again and that if I am dominant or not is not only defined by my sexual preferences.
I was born a queen with an attitude in my bl00d. As a lil girl I was very confident, always taking the lead and also with a great ability to make people adore me. πΈπ» I was just a lil princess, who believed she deserves all the love and attention of the world. Furthermore, I even remember how I imagined with my friend, when we were pretty little, how we tie boys, so they canβt move, and pinch and pull their cockies. π I even had a personal slave, who was a girl nobody wanted to play with, so I offered her she can play with us as long as she will serve us (btw. she became a very good friend of mine later and I made it up being kinder to her π). If that is not a birth of a little domme, I donβt know what is. π
Remembering these memories made me reflect my whole life and why I tended to submission. I was learned by my mum to never depend on a man, what was only supported by some negative experiences Iβve made. I became crazy over work and making money, just to never depend on a man financially and also emotionally. Life was also not always been very kind to me, so for a while I disconnected myself from my emotions and body and the true self. I was strongly in my masculine energy. Long story short, I ended up with immunity collapse and after a while even on an operation (some of you know the story).
Since that time Iβm reflecting my priorities in life and also my true self. I realised, I was actually never into being a submissive woman. I only enjoyed the release when being under control, and probably was also healing my trauma of being afraid to depend on a man. However, with Femdom and also coming back to myself, Iβm realising, that Iβve always been a queen that makes men submit to her, rather than submitting to them. πΈπ»
At the end every relationship is based on dependency and I no longer need to be under someoneβs control sexually to release the tension of not being able to depend on someone. I found my inner peace and woke up the sleeping queen. And I know I deserve to be spoiled and treated as a queen! The truth also is, that a men submitting to a woman, to provide, protect and please her, the real devotion, has anything in commont with kinks. It is rather about the values and attitude. The men can be dominant to the rest of the world, but submissive to the women, treating her with respect and unconditional love, yet they can have various prefferences when it comes to sex.
Thus, I rather prefer calling myself a dominant woman with a great sexual taste, or a dominant woman with an interest in exploring broader range of kinks. Or maybe just a human being with an interest in the deep world of pleasure and intimacy. π«β¨ Not every time is necessary to define what we are, enough to enjoy what we do. π
