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๐ธ May Magnolias mini set ๐ธ Had an awfully long day yesterday..
🕑 Added 2022-08-30 23:45:06 +0000 UTC ๐ธ May Magnolias mini set ๐ธ Had an awfully long day yesterday with a 2 hour doctor's appt in another town on an hour of sleep, woof. But looking at these pics makes me smile and I'm soso excited to share a peek from this set even tho I still haven't had the spoons to sort and edit a full set. This shoot is so special to me, I haven't been able to be outside just vibing in nature in yrs so this felt amazing,olus I got to hang out with my oldest friend I had only gotten to see once in like three yrs (check my post a couple days ago for the shoot day BTS and getting ready selfies!) And it was really nice to just play around without much of a goal or content need to achieve! Just two old pals messing around with some art ๐ฅฐ This also officially is the first shoot I've done in "civvys" (which for me just means anything that a regular human could wear in public haha) with my mobility aids! Which is a huge deal for me! ๐ฅณ Venturing out into the world with mobility aids can definitely be a harrowing experience. Not just realising how completely inaccessible most things are (even if they say they are accessible), but having to battle your own internalized ableism and all the stigma around them can be tough. I definitely felt self conscious at first and I still struggle from time to time. It took many yrs of training myself to overcome that initial discomfort by reminding myself there nothing to be ashamed of and if ppl judge me then it's their problem! I didn't even realise till after the shoot but this is one of the rare times I didn't feel that self conscious discomfort at all. I think maybe bcs I was so hyped with my outfit and thought I looked so damn badass there wasn't an iota of space for even an inkling of discomfort to sprout up ๐ It really did help me realise how far I've come bcs even a couple of years ago I would not have been able to feel this confident and radiant... It's one thing to not feel self conscious in braces and with a cane and stuff, and I'd gotten decently comfortable there, but entirely another from feeling stunning in them, and I think I'd forgotten how far away those two feelings are from each other Now as most of you know my walker is named Dora (after Dora the explorer, long story but short answer is bcs she helps me explore :p) but my cane has remained unnamed since joining the family last yr hehe so I would like to introduce you to Michael (after Micheal Caine bcs I am not original). He's actually dark brown but I wrapped him in white and blue kt tape (with a holo accent) for my caticorn shoot and thought it was still a great vibe to go with this look too! Eventually I want to try painting him bcs my dream cane is burgandy and rose gold ๐คฉ (just in case you couldn't tell from my fitbit bands, elastics, or glasses :p) PS I know gingers and the sunshine are mortal enemies but I swear there is just some uniquely iridescent quality that illuminates me from within whenever I do a naturey shoot in evening light โจ
