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This Month’s Schedule/ a weird thing
🕑 Added 2024-04-04 19:36:25 +0000 UTCHi everyone! This month I am doing a series of episodes which will require a pretty rigorous recording/editing schedule! I won’t have time to upload new vlogs with the same frequency this month, so you won’t be seeing the chaotic crying weirdo you have come to hate, I mean love. But you will be hearing me on the pod ALOT - sorry.
Also, this is just a weird thing that’s on my mind and idk how to feel about it so I am going to trauma dump on you guys and maybe someone will have insight. My friend and I submitted my sci-fi script to a screenplay competition to be produced. We shot a trailer ( I funded it ) for proof of concept and made a “pitch video” to fulfill the competition requirements. The results of the contest won’t be announced until next year.
Now, my friend called me and told me she wants to get this project produced and film in July. The reason she wants to film in July is so that the project will be finished by the end of her semester and she can use it to pitch as part of her senior thesis in film school. She would pitch it to be made into a series or a feature film. The project would take a week of filming (in GA to save money) and the final film would be 15 minutes long. It will cost about $65,000.00 (WHAT THE FUCK!)
When I looked at the page, godundme recommended other pages to fund medical treatments for children and I just felt like shit about it. I told her I feel really cringe about asking people for that much money to make a short film. I know people do it, but I still feel really guilty about it. People I know who spend that much on their shorts have deep pockets and/or industry parents who can get them favors.
I feel that the likelihood of any indie project with no “big names” attached getting picked up is slim so it’s not a solid investment. Also, I am afraid that it will flop and then people will be like wtf I wasted my money.
To be clear, I don’t have a problem taking $ from people if I feel like I am providing a service or it’s a mutually beneficial arrangement. I have been a hustler in the past and I’ve made ends meet when I needed to whether it was dancing, teaching Pilates, having a spicy ig page, or selling videos of my feet scrunching. I feel zero shame about that and I have no qualms about taking money for services rendered.
But I feel a deep uneasiness about sharing the go fundme page for the short. Maybe it is because I am insecure. Isn’t it weird that I value my intellectual property less than my physical body? Maybe it’s because 65k is a lot.
My friend told me that if I could see what trash the other people in her class are producing with even bigger budgets that I would feel better about the possibilities ahead. She said she really believes in my talent and that the industry is starved for new voices and ideas like mine, but literally producers are trained to say that shit to directors and talent.
I guess do you guys think I’m being too sensitive?? Should I just say fuck it and embarrass myself to make something that might flop? Is my gut reaction just me being a huge pussy? Is everyone just trying to produce something so they can have a job? What would bingus do? Might delete this bye
Nat
Comments
GathywithaG
I adore and ADMIRE u and Aly so much. I am no business expert, and not great with money, but I DO recognize TRULY INTELLIGENT, INTUITIVE, PEOPLE WHO MAKE THINGS HAPPEN. So my opinion is, if you have this much angst and doubt, sit with it a while longer, and ask why this isnt making you EXCITED instead of UNSURE and HESITANT. I trust your honest, unpressured decision will be the best for you. You're a HERO to me. I have ADHD, and I've never had more hope for my life than since listening to you. YOU GO BE YOU NAT!!! 💖
marylizabetha
Maybe it's just the site that is throwing you off! Maybe kickstarter would be better? I've funded peoples personal projects before. I don't think you should feel guilty about it.
cosmicSquid
I can understand, but it’s those people’s choice to fund the go fund me for the short.
kay (tothewin)
I totally get that, I'd be the same way. But something to consider is that people who decide to donate to the project do just that. Decide to donate. You are offering an option to donate towards a certain goal, and it's up to the individuals to decide how they spend their money. It's not your morals at play by then. No one has to support your project any more than any other, balls in their court. I will add though to make sure youre not taking it all on yourself, you're not the only one putting money and effort into it if your friend is pushing to get it done her way. You're not the sole project funder or creator or whatever so dont put it all on your shoulders. Make sure the load, financial or otherwise, is spread evenly, and consider making some loose ultimatums. I.e. "if you really want this done by this time, you're gonna have to come up with x amount of money by then, because I was intending to handle this slower" etc. don't let someone back you into a corner you can't get out of.
Korki Miller
Don't stifle your creativity! But I would also set limits- it shouldn't be all on you to come up with the funds. This is a team project. You also have a family, a life, and a very successful podcast. 😀 As a fellow Gemini, remember balance is important. Kickstarter sounds like a good place. If people have the funds and want to donate, they can. You're not forcing them to.
