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163 - The Monday Posts Must Go On.
🕑 Added 2021-03-15 12:01:02 +0000 UTCYeah, another Monday Post. I hope you're ready. Can't say I have any particularly good news to share, but it's Monday and we all know what that means.
A lot of things happening today that require my attention, so I am writing this in a hurry and I hope you will forgive me if this post will end up being not as refined and sophisticated as usual :)
To keep things short: a lot of stuff is going on right now. My health is still on top of the list, but I am working on it and feel like I am doing all I can for the moment, I just need to wait a bit to see the results. But my health stuff is only one of many things... A lot of other crappy stuff has been going in almost literally every aspect of my life lately. Some I won't even mention for now since it would need context and a lot of explanation first.
To sum it up, a lot of troublesome and problematic stuff is filling my life right now. But among all this, two things happened:
Thing number one: I received a lot of messages and comments with words of encouragement and it honestly made a huge difference where my mood is concerned. And among that I even had a few conversations with people on discord and through emails who offered help with coding and other stuff. I don't think I can use any help in that regard right now, but it was still nice. I also had a talk with BadSpider. Did you guys know that he's been working standing up for the past 11+ months?! His story really impacted me. Frist of all it was an interesting idea (to draw standing up) and I was astonished that I never thought of it myself. Working standing up is not a perfect solution, but it's better then nothing. Second off all I found his story very inspirational because when last year I had problems with my butt nerves and could not sit properly I got really depressed, I tried to work lying down, but mostly I've been just whining a lot until it was healed. BadSpider on the other hand just continued to work like a boss, and it really made me reconsider my outlook on some things.
Thing number two. It dawned on me that all the problems and troubles that are happening to me right now did not JUST happen. It was a project in the making for many years. For the most part this is a result of the way I lived my life, the way I treated my work, my body, my mind, my dreams and such. This is basically a signal for me to make some changes or that will be then of it.
That being said, I have nothing to report yet. Sorry. Honestly a lot of unpleasant crap going on and trying to solve and resolve it takes all my energy...
I love you all dearly. Thank you for your patience and support. And sorry for not going into too many details for the time being. I will be back, I promise. For now though I need to figure things out since I'm the only one who can do it.
-Aka-
Comments
Sean
I don't always comment, but I do read the Monday posts weekly. You're one of my all time favorite H-game creators, so I hope you find some ways to feel better. Don't be afraid to take a break if you need it. Especially since all of your stuff is free, you should be allowed some personal time for health related issues.
nocy81
just take your time to get better and the most important part that you can stay healthy in the future. wish you all the best
Ace
Love you as well, and don't be so hard on yourself, it's a shame that things get bad but blaming yourself will not fix anything, you did your best at the time. Now is just time to heal and learn
Ben
Dude to be honest in your place I am not sure I would be comfortable sharing all that you do. Tho I'm possibly a bad example on that front in any case. Really hope you get better, and or figure out how to get your life back in order. I would point out that pushing yourself too hard is what got you into this mess. But your sleekly aware of that and adapting to anything tends to take some pushing. Whish you the best and look forward to seeing you get through this which I know you can
Hivedragon
Good to hear and please continue to take care of yourself.
Knolden
Working standing up is indeed a good idea. Maybe get one of those adjustable height drawing desks that are at an adjustable angle as well? It puts far less strain on the neck.
Icy Panda
Can only hope that your health can only improve, so any breaks you need take them whenever
Dubsington
SunsetRiders7 (Something Unlimited, Bend or Break, etc) has a standing desk and does 100% of his work standing up. Given the amount of (really good) CGs that dude generates I think that's a pretty good endorsement. Last place I worked at had desks that raised and lowered with a switch, so you could change from sitting/standing during the day. Helps keep you awake and helps your neck, and it's super handy for when you need to get under the desk to fix a cable or something :)
Trevor Bond
Hey, man, you just gotta look at things from a new angle. Take your problems and don't say 'this sucks because', but try 'how can I shift things so this doesn't suck?'. I have KILLER back pain from my job (20+ years of running around on cement floors with few to no breaks), but eventually I thought about it and have gotten a better bed and now I sleep on my back as opposed to my side. It has improved things not just for pain, but for my sleep schedule and waking grogginess! SOme things we can't help, some things we just need to ponder a little bit on.
Newman
The fact that you are trying to find a balance in your life (quite literally if you can also consider the benefits of shibari drawing) IS great news for anyone who loves your work. It's a marathon, not a sprint, man. Take care of your body and mind, we need them :)
Albin
Working standing up is indeed great, especially with an adjustable desk where you can easily switch from standing and sitting. The variation and movement goes a long way for having the body better handle spending a lot of time at said desk.
BadSpider
"like a boss" xD Bro, I will work "like a boss" when I can sit down again, but till then I will keep drawing tee-dees any way I can ^^ Anyway, I hope you get better soon. Stay positive, you will beat this :)
Telemmenus
Bro, take care of yourself! I can’t offer any real help coding or more of the moneys... All I can do is wish you the best and enjoy your work
