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155 - Monday Post #155.
🕑 Added 2021-01-18 12:00:03 +0000 UTCHi, guys. I'll just get right to it: I don't have much to brag about progress-wise, and there two reasons for that.
Reason#1: I am working on the writing so naturally it's usually the most quiet phase of the process when I can't really give you any exciting updates.
Reason#2: my ongoing health problems. I hoped to avoid talking about this but it's been going on for three weeks now and at this point I need to at least acknowledge it since it does affect my ability to be productive.
So, the health stuff. I'm sure some of you remember "my butt hurts so much I can't sit on it" phase of my life. It was quite some time a go and took me several month of suffering before it went away. This time around it's my neck (and back and head). I always had problems with my neck but recently it got much worse. I can't look at a computer (or SWITCH's) screen for longer then 20 min. or so before getting a headache. But the worst part is it's so bad this time that it even affects my eyesight now: I developed hyperopia (Farsightedness) and I am not even 40 years old yet.
I went to see the doctor, but all she did was tell me to take vitamins and rest a lot. The thing is I can force my body to do nothing, but I can't really tell my muscles to relax (or my mind to stop to worry). The bottom line is I worry too much about everything and now it made my neck muscles so stiff it hurts the blood vessels and that causes horrible headaches and eyesight problems.
Naturally fixing this issue takes all my attention now and also makes it hard to concentrate on the work. What I am doing right now is making sure I go to gym 3 times a week (before I would often skip one or two days), I go to a message therapist for1 hour sessions 3 times a week. And also I take personal swimming training sessions (I can't swim but, but swimming is great to keeping back and mind healthy). I am also taking a lot of vitamin B and some muscle relaxants.
So far I feel no effects of any of that. The worst part I need to figure out a way to stop worrying so much. I feel like an idiot because I am basically making myself hurt by worrying too much about my work, my life and such... And at the same time since I worry too much, it makes my life worse and makes me worry even more... It's a cycle of stupidity...
I am sorry to take so much of your time with all this whining, but like I said, this idiocy affects my productivity, and it's been 3 weeks so I feel like avoiding talking about this would be like lying and saying that things are great when that is not exactly the case.
Fantasy Tavern Sextet -Vol.2 Adventurer's Days- is finally out. I've been really looking forward to playing through the second Vol.2 of this harem kinetic novel, but I didn't even purchase it yet since I can't play it right now since looking at the screen makes my head hurt...
Story of Seasons: Pioneers of Olive Town. I will be picking up Japanese version since it drops a month earlier and I simply can't wait. I am so hyped for this game it's insane. I need it! I could never get into Animal Crossing but I feel like this one will be just right for me. Hopefully my body will be back in working order by the end of the February, but if not I will probably be just taking painkilers and play this game anyway.
That's about it for the news. I hope I didn't spoil your mood too much with my whining. I had to talk about this, I was starting to feel like I'm hiding things from you or something. Now you are up to date and know everything. Hopefully next post will be less depressing.
Time to turn off my laptop. My head is starting to hurt again -_- I am sorry for being such an idiot, I need to learn to relax and take things slow once in a while, this is getting pathetic.
Thank you for your support and understanding. Love you all -_-
P.S. April lost her job in the previous episode but she remains cheerful. I need to take and example form her ^_^ See you all next week :)
Comments
AKAMAN
Had to google for "Playne", didn't know a thing like that existed. Will look into it.
AKAMAN
Yeah, it's not THAT big of a deal as long as it's not gonna progress too fast. It's just sort of happened to me in a matter of days so I did freak out a bit.
AKAMAN
Your uncle sounds like he could open up an online consultation for modern day artists and make a lot of money.
AKAMAN
Yeah, looking into all sort of glasses is on my to-do list. I hope to go see an eye doctor soon. Getting prescription glasses could improve things, but those blue light glasses are also something I want to try...
AKAMAN
Thank you, Icy Panda.
AKAMAN
Thank you Trevor. Really.
AKAMAN
To a degree I agree with you. But I still prefer to hear what the doc says before I make the final call.
AKAMAN
Oh I am well aware that anxiety making everything worse. Hell, I'm pretty sure half of my back/neck problems come from the psychology of it -_- I did think about seeing a doctor about this... Maybe I will...
AKAMAN
Thanks dude. I'm doing my best. Thank you for the support.
AKAMAN
Thank you, Ace.
AKAMAN
Love you.
AKAMAN
Me too, man...
AKAMAN
I'll give it a try, thanks.
AKAMAN
Pizza is for losers. Real men only eat Titzza.
AKAMAN
^^
AKAMAN
Yeah, since the doctors give me very generic advice I start looking into this stuff myself and trying to educate myself on the matter. I'll read up on cod oil. As for taking hot baths, I thought about it, but my apartment only has a shower -_-
AKAMAN
Thank you, TailoftheDevil. Seriously, thank you. Ultimately that's all I want: to that my silly projects made somebody's day a bit better. Makes it all worth it for me. Thank you.
AKAMAN
I am betting it's the sum of things: RSI, wrong lifestyle, wrong foods and my idiotic brain that never let's me relax. In any case I will do my best to solve this, thank you for your support man -_-
AKAMAN
Thank you Pierre. Honestly, I appreciate your concern. Thank you!
AKAMAN
BroWifu, my old friend T_T
AKAMAN
Thanks, Dan K.
Cisco Donovan
Be well, man. If you need to take a break, we'll be here when you get back!
Knolden
Hope you get better soon man.
morris ridgeway
Okay, a holistic approach. Get in a comfortable position the supports your head, shoulders, and neck. Lying down on your back or sitting in a chair that supports the hurting area. Breathe. Focus on your breath. Don't try to control it, just let it happen. Your mind may wander to stuff, that is okay . Mine does all the time. Just come back to your breath. Relax your body, head to toe. Breath into the area that hurts. Breath relaxation in and stress out. Doesn't matter how long you do it for. Could be thirty seconds or minutes. It is all up to you. Just focus on your breath and breathing into the area of concern. Hope this helps. And thank you for all you do for all of us. It is most appreaciated.
Kesha, go mutit` kolaboratsiu :)
Joseph
Oh man, for some reason I could really go for a pizza right now.
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simon22
Hope you feel better. if your muscles are tight you can take cbd oil, and hot baths with salt. If you need to take a break or medical leave Iβll completely understand.
TailoftheDevil
The work you do, not just with Star Channel but with al the games you've ever made have brought me a ton of happiness and fun, in both good times and down times. I'll continue to support you, no matter if you need to take an extended break or whatever you need to get back to 100%. I wish you the best and hope you can recover as best you can, not just so we can get our glorious content but way more importantly, so that you can enjoy life as well! You only live once and you don't want to spend the majority of it in pain and unwell!!!
John Hall
I hope you soon feel better. "This time around it's my neck (and back and head)." It sounds like this could be RSI (repetitive strain injury) caused by spending too much time hunched over a computer screen. Is your computer set-up arranged as ergonomically as possible? Maybe your monitor needs to be raised so that your head isn't bent over to look at it?
Nikraria
I use Playne sometimes to disconnect, but even with that sometimes is hard to make the brain shut up, I think is that what you say, the continuous dialogue with ourselves about bad things, but I don't know. Keep up the hard work with that, seems like you are doing all you can, I hope you get good results soon!
Twonki
Get well soon :) In terms of Hyperopia, ... well don't make it sound that bad buddy I was born with it :P
Lyk
Sounds like something my uncle had. Hot baths, lots and lots of stretching and most importantly fixing incorrect posture helped. Both while sitting and standing many have shitty posture nowadays, if you do a lot of handheld gaming and writing it gets even worse. And the worst thing is drawing if you focus a lot while doing it because it keeps your muscles tense over long periods of time to control fine movements. He was (or is, I guess) one of those technical artists who did very precise drawings of blueprints for machines back then. Nowadays people just do it on computers of course. Doctors weren't really any help so he just tried different stuff until he found something that worked after getting some inspiration by a guy he worked with who hit the gym a lot. When I had those problems with my arms he was a great inspiration even if my solution was a bit different. I probably wouldn't have put so much effort into finding a way to fix it on my own without knowing his story though. ^^
Blake
You could try Blue light glasses. You might be staring at too many screen and a blue light filter should help. Also make sure the blue light filter is on on your phone. Blue light can cause vision impairment, headaches, sleep deprivation, and stress. Worth a shot!
Icy Panda
It's important to take care of yourself, even if you might need to take some time off working, so I hope you recover as best as you can.
Trevor Bond
You take it easy. Rest, relax, and recover. If you need to take a day, a week, a moth, whatever. Your health is important!
MenasEru
Actually leaving it to your body IS a solution. Asking a doctor for a medicine is not a good solution.
karsonis
I don't want to give you more health issues to worry about, but that worrying about worrying things sounds a lot like my anxiety issues. That might be something to ask your doctor about as well if the things you're doing now continue to not help. Getting medication if you do have some kind of anxiety disorder goes a long way to making you feel like a person again.
Sharpblade_13
Your job is one of the best games I've ever played in my life, but for him to continue you need to be well, so take care of yourself dude.
Ace
Sorry to hear that. take it easy and heal, you are way to valuable to suffer, so all best
Minimoy
It's okay and understandable to worry about your life choices mate, time flies. All of this will be over when you burry your face into some gym girl's butt I'm sure. Much love to you
Pierre Bodic
I can't talk for everybody so i'll just talk for myself. I can wait, if you don't take care of yourself, you wont be able to finish your work, so it's better, in my opinion, to take time off to heal than let it get worse. Take care and get better.
Rwede
Reading this pains me. I sincerely hope you're going to take your time to heal and get some rest (even though you said so in your post, I'm still worry). Take your time, your health is very important. Take care, man, I mean it.
Dan K
I think "dont worry" is in place here. We good and what you make is good π
