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SW Gray Tale 12: Interlude : Vasha
🕑 Added 2025-07-08 21:10:30 +0000 UTC[Third Person POV]
The final shift-end klaxon blared across the docking bay, a grating sound that Vasha usually welcomed as the sweetest music in the galaxy. Today, it just felt like more noise.
She wiped a smear of hydraulic fluid from her cheek with the back of her glove, her muscles protesting with a deep, familiar ache. A stubborn G-2 motivator on a freighter's cargo lifter had fought her all afternoon, and she'd won, but it had been a pyrrhic victory. Her shoulders were tight, her fingers were stiff, and she could feel a layer of grime on her skin that no sonic shower would fully scrub away.
This was her life. The scent of ozone and ionized metal, the roar of departing starships, and the constant, weary satisfaction of forcing a stubborn piece of machinery to bend to her will.
But as she walked away from the clamor of the docks, heading toward the quieter residential spires, her thoughts weren't on faulty logic circuits or stripped hydrospanner bolts.
They were on a small boy with big, sad eyes.
What in the name of the Force was I thinking?
The thought had been circling her mind all day, a persistent little interrogator droid in the back of her head. Bringing a stray kid home? A human kid, no less? She had to be losing her mind. It was reckless. It was stupid. She barely made enough credits to keep herself fed and her workbench stocked.
And yet…
She remembered the way he'd looked at her in the market, like she was the only stable thing in a spinning universe. She remembered his story, a patchwork of tragedy that felt both rehearsed and horrifyingly real. She wasn't naive enough to believe every word of it, but the fear in his eyes when he spoke of the "white-helmets"—that had been genuine. She'd seen that fear before, in the faces of neighbors and friends who'd had family members "disappear" after an Imperial visit.
Then, last night. The nightmare.
The memory of him shooting bolt upright on the couch, his small chest heaving, his face a mask of pure terror… it had lanced right through her own weary cynicism. And when he'd started to cry, that quiet, hiccuping sob of someone trying desperately not to fall apart, every doubt she'd had just… evaporated.
In that moment, he wasn't a complication or a burden. He was just a child. A scared, lonely child who needed someone.
No. She couldn't have left him in that market. It wasn't in her programming.
A small smile touched her lips as she thought of his offer that morning. Her "assistant." A seven-year-old wanting to help her recalibrate power couplings. The kid had guts, she'd give him that. It was a ridiculous, adorable, and deeply sad notion, all at once. The desperate attempt of a child to prove he wasn't worthless, that he could earn his keep. No kid should have to feel that way.
Her pace quickened slightly as her apartment building came into view. A new kind of anxiety, one she hadn't felt before, fluttered in her chest. Was he okay? Had he been scared, all alone in a strange place? Had he eaten the food she'd left?
The walk home was a familiar grind, the duracrete sidewalks stretching out in a grey, monotonous line. The towering residential blocks loomed on either side, blotting out the last slivers of the setting sun. Most days, Vasha barely registered the oppressive architecture, but today, she felt a distinct urge to be somewhere else. Somewhere with open sky and green fields. Somewhere like… her memories faded, like trying to grasp a handful of smoke.
She passed through the bustling lower market, the stalls now bathed in the harsh glow of artificial lights. The air was thick with the smells of spiced meats, fried dough, and the persistent, acrid tang of exhaust fumes.
A flash of vibrant color caught her eye. A fruit stall, piled high with a rainbow of alien produce. Her gaze snagged on a particular fruit—round, a deep, almost iridescent purple, with a dusting of silvery scales.
Meilooruns.
The name bubbled up from somewhere deep inside, triggering a cascade of forgotten memories. Climbing trees in the humid heat of Ryloth's jungles. The sticky sweetness of the fruit exploding in her mouth. Sticky fingers. A shared laugh under a dappled canopy.
A pang, sharp and sudden, hit her chest. It was a familiar ache, a ghost limb of a feeling that came and went like the tides. The meilooruns, and the small boy waiting for her at home, triggered a familiar train of thoughts.
Her brother.
It felt like a lifetime since she'd last seen him. Part of her ached for him, worried about him, but she tamped down the emotion before it could fully bloom. Dwelling on what-ifs wouldn't do anyone any good. It was a chapter of her life that was largely unwritten. All she could do was keep moving forward. For both of them.
Vasha shook her head, trying to banish the lingering melancholy. She bought two of the meilooruns from the gruff Rodian vendor, tucking them carefully into her satchel.
Maybe Ezra would like them. They were definitely sweeter than space-potatoes.
The climb to her unit was a slog, three flights of rickety stairs made even more exhausting by the weight of her toolkit and the nagging ache in her muscles. The building's lift had been "temporarily out of service" for the better part of a year, a constant reminder of the broken promises and crumbling infrastructure of life under Imperial rule.
Finally, she reached her door. She fumbled with the access panel, the lock clicking open with a familiar snick.
"Ezra?" she called out, stepping inside.
The apartment was dim, the single work lamp casting long shadows across the cluttered space. The air smelled faintly of ozone, metal, and something sweeter… a hint of cinnamon spice?
Then she saw him.
Ezra was perched on her workbench stool, his tiny legs dangling far short of the floor. His brow was furrowed in concentration, his small face an epitome of focused contemplation. His chin was propped up by his hand, looking every inch like a miniature, grumpy old scholar. It looked so cute that Vasha's heart did a small somersault. She had to stop herself from reaching over and just taking a bite out of his chubby cheeks.
For a moment, Vasha just stood there, leaning against the doorframe, a genuine, unforced smile spreading across her face. He was so small, so utterly absorbed in whatever he was doing, that a wave of protective fondness washed over her. He looked less like a tragic orphan and more like a pint-sized professor contemplating the mysteries of the universe.
The little guy was so damn cute. The way his brow was furrowed, the serious pout of his lips—it was almost too much. She had a fleeting, ridiculous urge to scoop him up and give him a squeeze.
Her smile widened as she quietly closed the door behind her. "Find any state secrets in there?" she asked, her voice soft so as not to startle him.
He jumped slightly, his head snapping up. His big, blue eyes blinked at her, pulling him out of his intense focus. "Oh. You're back."
"That I am," she said, setting her satchel and toolkit down with a heavy thud. "And I brought snacks." She pulled out one of the vibrant purple meilooruns. "Ever had one of these?"
His eyes lit up for a second, a genuine flash of childish excitement, before his serious mask slipped back into place. "Not yet."
Vasha chuckled, moving closer to the workbench. "So, what's got you so deep in thought, Mr. Assistant?" she asked, her gaze drifting down to the datapad he was hunched over. She expected to see him playing some simple game, or maybe watching a cartoon.
Instead, she saw a complex, multi-layered schematic diagram. Blueprints. For a G-series loader droid's primary hydraulic actuator. Her blueprints.
She blinked.
Her brain took a second to process what she was seeing. The kid wasn't just looking at pictures. He was tracing the power conduits with one small, grimy finger, his lips moving silently as if he were reading the technical specifications.
What?
Then she remembered their conversation that morning. His determined little declaration. I can be your assistant. My mom... she taught me.
She had thought it was just a cute, sad attempt to be useful, the kind of thing a kid says when they're trying to feel like they belong. She hadn't, for a single second, believed he was being literal.
But there he was, staring at a schematic that made most rookie dock-hands go cross-eyed, and he looked… like he was actually trying to understand it.
Wow. Just… wow.
The kid had taken her completely, dead-seriously. A mix of amusement, surprise, and a strange sort of respect bubbled up inside her. He wasn't just playing a part. He was actually trying.
"You're… you're actually reading that?" Vasha asked, her voice a mix of disbelief and amusement. She leaned over his shoulder, the scent of her work clothes—ozone and machine oil—washing over him.
Ezra nodded, his expression dead serious. "A little," he admitted, his small finger tapping a cluster of interconnected symbols on the datapad screen. "I get the main power flow from the cell to the primary junction, but… what's this?" He pointed to a small, hexagonal component labeled 'Inertial Dampener.' "And this whole cluster of 'Repulsorlift Field Modulators'? Mom never worked on anything with repulsors."
Vasha stared. The questions weren't random. They were specific. He was actually identifying components. She pulled the stool from the other side of the bench and sat down, a new level of curiosity taking hold.
"Okay, well," she began, pointing to the hexagon. "The inertial dampener is pretty standard. It absorbs the kinetic kickback when the actuator engages at high torque, so the whole arm doesn't shear off."
Ezra nodded slowly, trying to process that. "So it's like… a shock absorber?"
"Exactly! But instead of using hydraulics, it uses a micro-gravitic field to—" She caught herself, realizing she was about to launch into a lecture on localized gravity manipulation. She looked at his small, concentrating face. Right. Seven-year-old.
"Yeah," she said, simplifying. "It's a shock absorber."
"Okay," he said, accepting it. "But the repulsorlift modulators… what do they modulate?"
"Ah, now that's the tricky part," Vasha said, warming to the subject. This was her turf. "See, the G-series doesn't just lift; it uses a low-power repulsor field to negate about eighty percent of the cargo's mass, making the lift easier. The modulators fine-tune that field. You have to sync them to the resonant frequency of the cargo's material composition, otherwise you get field shear and you could accidentally phase half a crate of Tibanna gas into the floor."
She watched his face for a sign of understanding, but his brow just furrowed deeper. He looked completely, utterly lost. The words—resonant frequency, field shear, Tibanna gas—were just a string of meaningless noises to him. His initial confidence was visibly deflating, replaced by a wave of pure confusion.
It took Vasha a moment to realize her mistake. She'd gotten so caught up in the technical explanation that she'd forgotten who she was talking to. She was explaining advanced repulsorlift theory to a child who probably still counted on his fingers.
"And then you have to cross-reference the output with the… oh, Force," she sighed, putting a hand to her forehead. "I'm sorry, Ezra. I'm getting carried away. It's… complicated."
She expected him to look disappointed or give up. Instead, his expression changed. He looked up at her, blinked his big blue eyes, and suddenly slid off the stool.
"Oh! Sorry, wait a minute," he said, as if a switch had been flipped in his head.
Before she could ask what he meant, he scampered off toward the kitchenette. Vasha watched, bewildered, as he rummaged around for a moment. He reappeared a few seconds later, carefully carrying a glass of water in his two small hands.
He walked over and held it up to her.
"You must be thirsty," he said, his voice earnest and clear. "You worked all day and then you climbed all those stairs. And you've been explaining things to me. You should drink some water."
Vasha was so taken aback she almost dropped the glass. She stared at the small boy, at his serious, upturned face, and then at the water sloshing gently in the cup. Her throat felt tight.
When was the last time someone had asked her if she was thirsty? When was the last time anyone had brought her a glass of water just because she looked tired? She couldn't remember. Her life was a one-way street of her taking care of things—of droids, of rent, of herself. To have someone, a tiny stranger she'd known for less than a day, show her such a simple, profound act of care… it was disarming.
"Oh," she managed, her voice a little thick. She carefully took the glass from his small hands, her fingers brushing his. "Ezra. Thank you."
She took a long, slow sip. The water was cool and clean, and it did little to quench the strange warmth blooming in her chest. She felt her carefully constructed walls of self-sufficiency tremble, just for a second.
He watched her drink, satisfied, then tilted his head. "How was your day?" he asked, his tone as serious as if he were a manager debriefing an employee. "Are you tired? Did anything bad happen?"
The questions, so simple and direct, caught her completely off guard. The automatic, adult response—"Fine,"—died on her lips. No one ever asked her that. Not really. Her co-workers at the docks just grunted hellos and goodbyes. There was no one at home to ask at all.
And for the first time in a long time, Vasha actually had to stop and think about the answer.
The truth was, her day had been miserable. The G-2 motivator had been a nightmare, her supervisor had been breathing down her neck about quotas, and her back ached from leaning over a cramped engine compartment. She was bone-weary and emotionally frayed.
But you couldn't tell a seven-year-old that.
She let out a soft, tired laugh, running a hand through her tied-back lekku. "Am I tired? Yeah, you could say that." She looked down at the datapad, then back at him, deciding on a simplified version of the truth.
"My day… well, it was a fight," she said, leaning against the workbench. "There was this one big, grumpy loader droid. A real stubborn one. It didn't want to work, and it didn't want me to fix it." She made a face, mimicking a grumpy droid. "It just wanted to sit there and leak hydraulic fluid all over the floor."
Ezra's eyes widened slightly, picturing the scene.
"So we argued all afternoon, me and that droid," Vasha continued, a hint of genuine frustration coloring her voice. "I had to replace one of its main joints, and it fought me every step of the way. But," she finished, a flicker of pride in her eyes, "in the end, I won. The big grump is lifting crates again, and now I'm home."
She looked at him, a real, weary smile on her face. "So yeah. It was a long day. But nothing bad happened. Not really." She took another sip of water, the simple coolness a welcome relief. "Thanks for asking, little guy. And thanks for this." She held up the glass. "I needed it more than I knew."
