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🕑 Added 2024-05-14 20:23:46 +0000 UTCThis is not comic/posting/etc news! But for those of you that have been worried about me, asking me things, trying to talk to me, I hope this clears some stuff up. I will not be going into deeper detail than what is written below.
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I haven't been as active as I have wanted, I've been getting by, getting art and projects done, but my head hasn't really been here. Not for my friends or readers, not as much as I would like.
I've been through a lot in the last 8-9 months. I have been gaslit and told things opposite of what I thought were true of people that were close to me. I lost trust I had with another, I lost any feelings of safety or security I would have for myself and my husband. Maybe I was foolish to put my life in the hands of someone else's. But I was told it would be safe. How wrong that was.
For months I've had anxiety attacks, breakdowns, blackouts. And while that's normal for me, happening a few times DAILY isn't. All because someone decided to live in their own reality instead of the one that was real and true. All because of their white lies that piled up so high they couldn't see that they had friends and love and care. All those feelings are gone. I can't be around someone who destroys good in their and others lives.
I haven't shared this until now because I don't like mixing life and work. You don't need or want to hear of my daily struggles. That, and I have been stalked online by them despite everyone agreeing to keep a distance after the fallout between us occurred. If they hated me, wanted me to leave, wanted me to die, then why are they still following me? Listening to me? Stalking my sites and private accounts and listening to me as they creep quietly down the halls of our home?
Now that I have finally moved apartments, no longer living with them, and have the chance to breathe, I'm just a bit less scared to say it all. And if 'THEY' see this. Then that continues to prove my point that they don't know what reality they are in. Between using their friends and making fake accounts to hunt me down, it's getting tiring and ridiculous...
I won't be 100% for a while. It's why I haven't spoken much to my friends and followers and supporters. But I promise to keep working for you all. You are the reason I have purpose in myself. These stories and characters and connections between us gives me so much life. And despite all that's been happening, I love and thank you all.
✦ Nox
Comments
Nox
Thank you guys ;-; Those who have commented, you're making me feel so much it's hard to reply personably but I appreciate your thoughts SO much. And to others, thank you for even reading. I'm going to do my best to recover and keep going~
Abigail Gill
All of that to say these kind of people exist everywhere... Selfish, delusional, manipulative, blowing hot and cold so that we would cater to them. And interesting folks like us (:p) always attract them somehow. And to get rid of them once they are rooted needs a lot of effort and a lot of work and a lot of patience, and like pulling a root, it might not be pleasant and leave one exhausted... But afterward, you feel much better. Plus remember: virtual space is "virtual". If they ever reach you around here, they have no real power. It's all a bunch of pixel and their only importance is the one we choose to give them... or not. Heck if words had a real power on the Internet, Twitter would not exist X)
Abigail Gill
I can't really say much given I am in no place to speak and don't know anything... But I don't know if it can help, but I had an experience with a similarly disturbing person, who had been my best friends for decades... Until I realized they actually manipulated everybody around me whenever I made a new friend so that everybody would hate the new friend. Because they feared being "replaced" somehow. That's when it struck me how much they had crept and imposed themselves in my life, and I could only manage to get out of it all by brutally cutting all ties (they helped by throwing bizarre tantrums for no reason, and I took them at their word) and taking advantage of living in a different city to never see them again. They still sent me messages from time to time for Christmas or my birthday - never realizing how creepy these messages sounded, and that only stopped when my phone crashed and I had to change my line.
Oksana W
Hey there, I’m so sorry to hear that’s been happening to you. I really hope you are able to find peace, get the negativity out of your life, and heal. Thank you for sharing your art and stories and characters with us. I might mention that you have been helping me through a rough time in my own life with your lovely and fun art. So thank you from the bottom of my heart, and I hope things get better for you.
JV
Take all the time you need, I know how anxiety attacks can feel so I understand part of what you have been through. I am glad to hear that you have been able to remove yourself from the situation, so hopefully you can now start to recover and heal from the ordeal. We all wish you the best!
Enlightener of Cryptozoology
Jesus Christ! What a bunch of lunatics.
AgentWGD
Wishing you well. You're a super creative person if you need extra time to heal thats totally okay!!! Wishing you the best!
PanDemonics
My dear friend, you are very strong, don't let anyone fool you. I'm glad you got this off your chest.
Bubblelover123
I’m so sorry you are going through this. Please focus on yourself and do what you need to do try and rebuild what that person has taken from you. Sending you all the best vibes possible.
Nox
TY, doing my best. Ah, I know! *gives my ptsd to my characters* All better...
Dylan Voyda
Yikes. Hope you can move on from this creep. Heal up
