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Hi Seven, it's Seven again. [Journal Entry #1]
🕑 Added 2023-08-18 22:21:39 +0000 UTCI'm sitting in my dressing room in Heavenly Isles studio. Soft Violence is next and I usually ask myself how I feel about these things. It helps ground me, I guess.
There's always so much going on that I don't know what I'm feeling half the time. Avina tells me that having that kind of awareness is already a step in the right direction. I find it to be a waste of time. My brain should be working with me, not against me. Whatever.
How do I feel? Nervous? Excited? The usual standard pre-show butterflies. I have confidence we'll get picked for tour but there's always that tiny doubt. Once again, brain is my enemy but I sort of like that doubt. It's sorta satisfying proving myself wrong.
I know I'm not special and there isn't some higher power choosing me to take it but I do feel like this tour was made for me. It doesn't seem right if soft violence doesn't get picked.
Did I think I'd be here when I first joined SV? No. Even though I was determined to...determined to make it with SOFT VIOLENCE I always wondered if the universe was trying to tell me something back when I left my last band.
Maybe I wasn't meant to be a musician...sometimes loving osmething (something) doesn't mean you should pursue it. maybe seven duckstein is who ill ever be. [Crossed Out: my mom always did think lawless was a terrible stag(e) name]
I mean that's what I thought for a while. My stubbornness and spite singlehandedly brought me here. I don't know if that's a good or bad thing...
I don't want my life to revolve around that night, the party or the vote. I don't want my success to be because of that. I don't think feeling that way makes me a bad person but...
I know (other) people are auditioning. I don't know what to expect from this tour. Ryan tells me im overthinking whenever I get in my head but he doesn't know anything. Our manager is busy with so many bands I think he forgets who I am sometimes. That's alright. I don't need him for much.
I'm talking nonsense now. I don't really know the point of this besides trying to distract myself before we get on stage. Pope and Kieran seem to be in high spirits. Avina likes to pray before a show.
We'll be fine, I think. We'll be alright...
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Comments
Somewillwin
Why are they like this I love them
Amy
YAY
Amy
Thank you so much!!
Amy
That’s a good suggestion!
Amy
omg that’s so true
Rue
The juxtaposition between Seven's before-audition state (madly writing in his journal) and MC's (literally asleep) is fascinating.
pinkie♡lemonade
oooh! i love seeing Seven's journal! if they were doimg more than just spirals, and writing an entry instead of a song/spirals (like venting to it? idk), during the late-night bus scene, id love to read that too!!
Tweedle Dee
Fun how they are each going through their rituals and his, for now, is Journaling. It's fun being inside sevens head when he doesn't hate us. It's also weird but in a good way. It's just such a wonderful peak at his story.
Sunny
You have done it once more. I got to say that I’m actually surprise on how much you have made me care and love Seven to the point that reading something as small as this, makes me feel the extreme need to hug them and put them in my T-shirt pocket where nobody will ever hurt them again. They are my little wet cat and nobody is going to touch them… even if 7 itself hurts us(me) most of the time (;´༎ຶٹ༎ຶ`) (𝐄𝐧𝐠𝐥𝐢𝐬𝐡 𝐢𝐬 𝐧𝐨𝐭 𝐦𝐲 𝐟𝐢𝐫𝐬𝐭 𝐥𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐮𝐚𝐠𝐞 𝐬𝐨 𝐬𝐫𝐫𝐲 𝐢𝐟 𝐬𝐨𝐦𝐞 𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐬 𝐬𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐝 𝐚 𝐛𝐢𝐭 𝐬𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐞)
lem
this is so fun and i always love a peek into their messy little brain
lem
i want to put them in a pot and make them into a soup
winterpixel
I LOVE THIS SMM
Amy
im glad you liked it!! I thought it would be fun to give a visual of what I imagine seven's handwriting to be haha!
abi
this is so cool!! i love being able to peek into 7’s head
Amy
hehehe <3
jules
omg amy. seven is everything to me… everything!!!!!!
