rajii
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🕑 Added 2020-12-01 20:52:55 +0000 UTCHey everyone.
I am very sorry for the radio silence. I'm not doing that well mentally since the last time I uploaded anything but some good news is that I started seeing a therapist so I can get better and be the best version of me I can be.
It's very hard for me to write this 'cause I feel like I'm just giving excuses and failing you all and myself, and the self-deprecation cycle I am in doesn't need any more fuel.
I'm taking small steps to get better tho (apart from seeing a professional), like getting up at an earlier time in the mornings and setting small goals for the day (including this one) and when it comes to drawing I'm just sketching whatever, even if I end up deleting it later.
Regarding the rewards I owe you, I'm going to start sending them right after I post this, so you should receive them via PMs in the next minutes or so.
Since I didn't post anything in November I'm extending access to the up-to-date links until the end of January of next year, so you can get everything until then even if you decide to cancel your pledge :]
I'm gonna keep working on myself 'cause I'm tired of feeling like I do now!
Thank you so much for your support and understanding!
Comments
Freckles
No te preocupes cuidate plis <3
Tokifuji
Ah sorry to hear about your struggles, seems to be the theme of this year, but glad you are looking to improve your situation as much as you can :D
Jiggly
That's right, you are still drawing. Even if you don't want to finish it? Just dump it here, or talk about your ideas. :) Don't be so hard on yourself.
Rajii
They have access to all the images I've posted on Patreon and to the reward links I posted after this one for every individual tier.
Rajii
Thank you! and even if you are, as you call it, a random person on the internet, your comment is very helpful and I appreciate it a lot!
Rajii
You are right, I just struggle with myself 'cause it feels like I'm 'doing nothing' when my sketches don't go anywhere, I need to start being kinder to myself.
Rajii
I thank you for your comment and I'm sorry to hear you are going through something similar. My mom said something to me that helped me a lot "You are trying to watch all the slideshows at once, remember that you need to take one at time to see a clear picture". I don't know your specific situation but I feel that could help in a lot of cases, taking things slow but steady as much as posible and celebrate yourself when you feel like you got a win, even if it's something small. I'm trying my best to apply it to my current situation and I know it works 'cause it has helped me before.
Rajii
Thank you!
DragonLordRyu
I am glad that you are doing well but what about people who just subbed to you last month/this month?
PLEASE take time for yourself if/when you need it!!! Therapy is also a great idea on your part. No one here thinks anything less of you as a person or artist for giving yourself the attention you need. I know I’m just a random person on the internet but please reach out if you want to talk. I know that self-depreciation cycle all too well. Hang in there rajii ❤️
Jiggly
I'm just glad to hear that you are still alive. I'm not cancelling my pledge anytime soon so please just take care of yourself! I'd personally be happy if you occasionally dumped some sketched ideas on here, even if they don't go anywhere.
AlexNil
This is awesome Rajii. I've been struggling mentally a lot myself but unlike you I haven't been able to start making the changes in my life that I want to make, so I can say that I relate to a lot of this but also that you are a big inspiration not only as an artist but as a person that wants to keep moving forward and be better. Thank you for everything that you create and for just being you.
Laika
wishing you the best! Keep doing you, you're awesome! <3
TorporTomboy
Keep on keeping on, Rajii! You can do it! 💖
