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A few updates
🕑 Added 2023-03-30 01:31:37 +0000 UTCCW Suicide talk
Things in my life have continued to be rough. I'm scared, and anxious, and worried, and I just want the love of my life to be safe, happy, and healthy as its true self for a long life ahead.
I feel like I'm watching the inevitable unfold in slow motion. I feel like I'm watching a trainwreck from behind a wall of glass, praying the carriage carrying my girlfriend at the rear of the train never catches up to the smoldering pile just down the line, but knowing there's no stopping the inertia. It feels like our only hope is for help to sweep us away before it's too late. It feels like our only hope is beyond our control.
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So where does this leave my artistic work? Well... I don't plan to stop outright, but I need time to look after myself and, of course, my girlfriend.
Drawing is easier to pick away at and make gradual progress. I can keep going on drawing with little mental capacity, but writing is different. Writing requires a kind of focus and mental capacity I just don't have right now. As such, I'm temporarily closing writing commissions.
I currently have two writing commissions on the go, but I will not abandon them. I will complete them eventually, but it will take me much longer than normal. I accepted the latter of them last week because things were looking up, and because I still desperately need money, but I regret accepting it now. After those are eventually finished, if I'm still not ready to reopen writing commissions, I will continue to write less than normal but I will try not to stop completely. At that point, I'll just write whatever I want, or whatever I can.
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I'll still make and post as much as I can, but I can't promise the same frequency as normal for a little while.
Thank you all for supporting me, I hope things get better soon.
