daichi777
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Status - March
🕑 Added 2025-03-27 16:30:02 +0000 UTCHi everyone,
I don't have anything to release for this month. I cannot apologize enough and feel terrible that I can't deliver anything at all including art batch.
Long story short, I have not been and still am currently not in the right state of mind. I've been severely struggling mentally and financially. I've come off the 2nd anti-depressant as it became very detrimental to me and I'm now on my 3rd one to try. I've been suffering from withdrawals and brain zaps for the past 3 weeks and it's hard to concentrate and work without breaking down or losing track of time.
The reason I don't have art batch (something I've always ensured to as bare minimum to give back something for your sub or to add the asset to games), is because I've had to dip into what little savings I had. Wasting time and money earlier this month on seeing a psychologist that wouldn't have been able to help whatsoever. Doctors here won't prescribe me something stronger that I desperately need without getting referrals back to just confirm. I have to now try and save to see a Psychiatrist at least once hopefully about June. The 3rd anti depressant (Buproprion/Wellbutrin) isn't subsidized or normally prescribed in Australia either for anti-depression and costed me $90 for 30 freaking tablets.
As I've always said and still mean it, only subscribe if you feel you are getting what you feel is worth it. Regardless of my personal status, this still stands and I don't want anyone to feel bad for unsubbing, cost of living is really bad right now and I know I haven't had a game update released in quite awhile. I'm not going to think any different of you and already have been grateful for the first support in the first place, I'm also someone who only subs for content released at the time because I never have a stable income. My work ethic has always been to try overprovide what I feel I can for the $5 tier with extra for higher tiers every so often. Money isn't something I really care about or focus on... until I actually need it like this month. Big reason why I'm a loud mouth on piracy and have to resort to the extreme time wasting of sending personalized links when you sign up.
April I will be aiming to release something... ANYTHING, that I can as it's been far too long since a game update for everyone, and for financial reasons. The brain zaps and ideation has slowly been lessening and I'm able to think a little clearer at times. In saying that, the update may be something smaller or a random single event like Dani's straw one when it was first released before her story arc.
I apologize once again. And thank you all for everything you've done that's helped support me even just once. Every time I make one of these posts and have no game update, I feel like I'm making excuses especially for how often it happens. Tsumi's plan was only supposed to take me 2 years then I can move onto the next 2 games in the trilogy but things just keep kicking me to my knees then while I'm on the ground from piracy to now being last of kin. It's taken me an hour to just write this post going back and forth from the way the withdrawals are affecting me.
PS: If you ever need to go on an anti-depressant, AVOID Effexor if possible. Has by far the worst withdrawals and can last for months depending how long you are on it. The brain zaps alone make everything worse making you lose track of time and giving confusion. Something Dr's I've been to (and heard from others online later) that did not warn me about.
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Gans
health is more important . Take care of yourself. We will wait as long as necessary.
Daichi
I understand about the avoid part sorry, I cannot think straight but I remember I had put to still listen to your dr as it's not medical advice and I know everyone reacts different. I seem to have deleted it when I was going back and forth for that hour sorry. It was more the withdrawal effect and 3 people not warning me about it. Then seeing how many online had similar not being warned just how bad the withdrawal gets out of all anti. Lexapro was the 1st anti I was on from Sept-Dec but when I upped the dosage It became the closest I've ever been to struggling and physically fighting myself from the ideation. Finally made me understand why people do that feeling of not being able to feel anything and with no emotion even logic is hard to keep up with the overwhelming feelings. It was absolutely terrifying without being able to actually feel fear or anything if that makes sense. Despite what happened with lexapro depending with this new one I may see if I can go back on a low dosage of it as it made me so energetic and I lost 7kg in 5 months from exercise every day, something I never did before. It's what pushed me to do the story arc so much and so well. Thank you for your kind words, the brain fog is hell and making me forgetful at times. Looking to the side with my eyes still makes a sound in my head and zaps and then leaves me confused for a few seconds.
Nope Nope
Sorry you're going through all this man. I remember when I came off Lexapro I had brain zaps for a while and anger issues with memory loss for about 6 months. It was a terrible medication for me. It's a great prescription for other people though. It's working wonders for my grandma. Antidepressants are really strange in how they work. It is literally brain science. That said, it may be a little irresponsible to tell others to avoid an antidepressant because of a bad experience. It's hell for some and a life saver for another. Being told to avoid it from a trusted person like yourself may prevent someone from getting the help they need. I would personally tell people to about getting antidepressants from a general practitioner or a therapist though. They have some experience, but they lack the tools that psychiatrists have. It's much better to save up for the psychiatrist than spend a bit less money and have years of antidepressant brain fog that fixes nothing. I'll continue to support you when I can. I enjoy the work you do and feel like you've over delivered in the past. Now is probably the time when you need support the most as well. Take care man, and make sure to take the time to identify your emotions. That was one of the things I wish I had done more when I was going through a similar experience.
