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🕑 Added 2024-02-01 06:54:52 +0000 UTCI have marked with a star(★) those paintings that I particularly like.
1. Curved Road and Snow
2. Building and Snow★
3. Snowscape view from the Museum★
4. Snowscape Seen from the Museum
5. Farmland and Snow
6. Rice Field and Snow
7. Rice Field and Snow★
8. Ski Lesson in an Elementary Schoolyard★
9. Greenhouse, Snow, and Wheel Tracks
10. Roof Covered with Snow★
11. Snow, Cemetery, and a Walking Dog★
12. person who slips★
13. Bonfire and Shrine Maiden★
14. Bonfire and Shrine Maiden★
15. Study of a Bonfire and Shrine Maiden★
16. Burning Daruma
17. Sketch of Fire★
18. Ancient People Harvesting Rice★
19. Ancient People Harvesting Rice★
20. Statue 'Blissful Moment' and Snow
21. Statue 'Blissful Moment' and Snow (the next day)
22. Statue 'Blissful Moment' and Snow(pastel)★
23. Statue 'Blissful Moment' and Snow(pastel)
I like to see people shoveling snow. I like to see people walking hard. I like being in the snow. I like people hitting the stove at the station they finally arrive at.
Am I a fool for not wanting "normal times"? Snow is a beautiful but mild disaster. But my eyes were looking for them.
Late last year, a friend of mine died. This year, a manga artist I admire died. Both were the worst possible endings, the result of my disgust with this world.
There are too many things that disgust me these days.
I am now unable to identify with color.
I have been forcing myself to "pretend" to be human.
Especially in the last year. I have worked many jobs and have more social flexibility than before.
But I remain neglectful of the essential work that I should be doing as a human being.
For example, I cannot open DMs, be it Twitter, Patreon(sorry), or physical letters. I want to open them, but I just can't help but feel anxious and have palpitations.
It has even caused me to receive important letters from the court.
Also, I still have several requests that I accepted a year ago and have not finished.
This year, I will calm down and work steadily.
I also need to open the 99+ DMs I got from you guys soon.
That is still not today...still.
Comments
Brantly McCord
I'm so sorry to hear about your losses! I think the work we do to "pretend" to be human is a lot like shoveling snow: it's hard work, but it's very important work to keep the path clear for ourselves and for others (and if we do it too much without help, we'll become exhausted; we must not forsake our own health)! I know you will find the strength to read those messages when you are ready! And I especially love your sketches of snow and people performing labor: it gives me the courage to keep working, but also to stay soft!
K MI
Fire is so hard to draw.
