Alice Winterhold
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Caught Short WIP 5 , and some complaining about my life
🕑 Added 2024-08-22 13:07:09 +0000 UTCFirstly, Sorry for the disappearing for a week thing. You should probably get used to reading that apology because I will most likely be saying it a lot more than I already have.
I am increasingly aware of how much I'm overreaching with this project. It's one thing to make some little animated fucking loops with simple little characters; doing a lot of motion, different poses, keeping things interesting, well that is a whole other thing. What you are seeing in the culmination of about 4 days of work, no joke. This is me going hard too, I think I'm quite speedy at this, I've come up with more tricks to save time but as you improve so do your standards. I need every little head swing to have some frames of hair bouncing , each posture change must have the boobies wobble, it's subtle and you probably wouldn't notice it but when it's missing the animation just looks unacceptably stiff and I want this to be GOOD. I think I'm maybe 30% finished with the whole thing at the moment and that is a horrifying realisation.
Animation is damn hard
And about my life. I need help. I am rapidly becoming too mentally ill to do anything at all. It's been bad for years now, I thought things would slowly improve on there own once life was comfortable but I am just becoming more and more useless. You know, I used to be able to go into shops and stuff, I haven't been inside a shop in a year. I can't do it. I went to the doctors for get myself referred to mental health services and I couldn't survive waiting 20 minutes in the waiting room, I had to run away crying and panicking, this was with TechBoy escorting me too. I don't know what to do anymore, I feel like I'm running out of time and I'm already out of ideas on how to get better. It's scary.
The visit to the Doctors is why there's no videos from me this week, I took one video off before it to save up some will and now I feel so bad for failing to see the Doctor that I can't bring myself to do one for tomorrow... Well, that and I am really ill too, I got a bad cold or something
Anyway... I LOVE YOU XOXO
Comments
Me... Ian
Hi Alice, wish we could all help more. Maybe a way to start is to self refer for talking therapy which you can do here https://www.nhs.uk/service-search/mental-health/find-an-nhs-talking-therapies-service I did this myself and it helped. Fingers crossed for you x
Scotty Keister
Is there any way you could arrange with the doctor to not have to wait in the waiting room, if you explain the problem? Maybe if you went with TechBoy he could wait inside with you outside in the car, then come to get you when they were ready, or they could take your appointment on time when you got there. It feels hopeless, but you are clever and brave so I feel like you can figure this hurdle out.
Neek Atnyte
I'm in a similar situation. I can't really leave the house without a pill. Without them I'm pretty useless. Keep trying, it could get better.
Steve
Mental health is no joke. You could try a private on-line doctor. It’s not free of course, but it’s an option. You can have a face to face chat without going outside.
Bryan R Stahl
Just remember that the people here are here for you. If you can’t get things done, we understand and will wait.
Richard
Mental health is never easy..only way I can do anything is by strict routines...if anything disrupts it then I'm useless for days... I think you do blooming marvellously ...you certainly get out and zbout and take some enjoyment from life...Im OK when I'm in my own car as its a mobile space that's in my control but other than that I can struggle hard... You make life easier and better for myself and many others with your bravery and gumption..keep up the good work as and when you can..it really helps us all..thank you so much.x
Dan M
Hey Alice, You don’t need to apologise. People are here because they want to support you in whatever it is you want to do. At whatever speed you are able to do it at. And if people are not happy with what you are doing then they’ll leave anyway. So it’s all good 🙂
