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AN HONEST CHAT
🕑 Added 2022-10-20 18:40:52 +0000 UTCHey fam,
So I gotta get a bit real here for a sec, I'll try to keep it short-ish but regardless, if you're reading this thank you for doing so!
Essentially, ya boi is struggling a bit right now. I don't know if it's a mental health thing or a worn out thing from all the comebacks we've had or a "I've bitten off more than I can chew" type thing or some combination of all those but I'm struggling.
I'm finding it really really hard to motivate myself into filming for a lot of things. Some things are easy because I'm so invested in those groups that it's much simpler, but for a lot of the stuff it's hard, not because I don't love the groups obvsiouly but just cause... it's a lot right now.
I really like the plan and the idea of the schedule that we've got atm with the different shows and everything but right now I'm very much struggling to get it to work (as some of you have probably noticed lmao). I'm also in the process of trying to actively lead a healthier lifestyle with regular exercise and good eating & sleeping habits and as anyone who has tried knows, enforcing a new routine takes some time to make work.
Basically, I think I just need to slow down for a bit. For the time being I'm going to really focus on the things I most want to be filming and take the time to figure out how I can best make this work for myself. I'm hoping that by lessening the pressure I've put on myself it'll at least partially take away this mental block I've got going on and allow me to ease into a more stable and regular routine.
As always I'm immensely grateful for your patience and care and, to be clear, I do not expect you to stick around if the content you're here for isn't coming as regularly as you'd like. I will do my best with everything, it's just that right now my best is a little limited.
Requests will still be coming at the end of each week along with Hotel Del Luna when I can and there will still be regular content it just might be more focused on a smaller selection of groups for the time being (i.e. Le Sserafim, Dreamcatcher, Fromis and some others). It may also come at random times and on random days but we'll see.
Once I'm ready, I will start re-introducing other things back into regular rotation and we'll go slowly from there.
Again, if you're reading this, thank you for doing so. I have a lot of love for you all and I appreciate you greatly for being the reason I can have this flexibility in my life.
I have Yunjin & Chaewon's Lee Mujin Service episodes on the way and I'll also (finally) post the blocked comeback show stages.
See you later,
- Kaia
p.s. any unsolicitated requests or messages/comments like "when will you be watching..." will be ignored or deleted. The last thing I need rn is more pressure so please be mindful of that, thank you
Comments
Scott Louis
You take care of you first and foremost. Your health is always most important. I love going back and watching your TWICE content. And will always look forward to more of it. 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜💜
PositiveThinking
I think most of us enjoy watching reactions when the reactor is honestly enjoying it too. It just doesn't make sense to force yourself to film reactions if it's hard. Watch what you want, film what you want, and take care of yourself :) PS. It's not like most of us actually pay that much for your patreon... Don't feel like you owe us
Oro The Nymph
Your health comes first and foremost, ALWAYS. We're just people on the other side of the screen y'feel me?
Davids12345100
I really enjoy your reactions but I’m very glad you’re taking care of yours self! Whatever works for you I’m with you! Get some well deserved “me” time!
Daniel Goland
It's been rough this past month, and even without it being October, you post so much content and you definitely deserve a break. So I hope you'll manage to take it easy and feel a bit better!
ssrrmm
I personally think you should film whatever you want to watch, at least while you feel like the other stuff is hard to record, i believe the "problem" might be that the groups you're most invested in are the ones with the most content out at this moment, so once you catch up on that you'll naturally end up wanting to watch other stuff as well
sh._.kyu
Take your time!! It’s completely understandable to need a rest, things have certainly been hectic. I can’t imagine the pressure you must be feeling… hopefully you start feeling better soon <3
mm
The last weeks have been intense! My grandpa always said something along the lines of "Nothing in life is harder to bare than a series of good days" (I think it's a Goethe quote). I think we all need a little rest right now so don't worry and take your time :)
Lance Ma
is all good, you have mountains of content lol I need to catch up, like you I don't want to burn myself to follow more groups than necessary because I know I would fall in love and now I have too much places to divert my limited capacity to take in content.
AvaPlaya
One thing that definitely contributed was the sheer density of stuff, especially from some of your (and my) favorite groups. There was just a LOT of stuff coming out and I can understand by the end of that just feeling exhausted. I feel exausted and I dont have to film myself having a breakdown over Dreamcatcher, I get to do that privately. Make sure you look after #1 first.
Sandra l.
It was a busy month indeed, your brain probably need a rest... You should always react to what you want to react to, what makes you feel better :)
jay
I will continue paying my rent to the server and hope you start feelin better. more than happy to stick around for whatever ✌️
