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IRL + Upload schedule update!
🕑 Added 2025-06-11 06:48:53 +0000 UTCTurns out yesterday me and my siblings ended up having to talk and discuss after all. And it was a pretty emotional discussion for me since tbh eventhough I do like my family, I was still unsure whether or not that emotion was just something that is genuine or something that I need because of the fact that we're family. My oldest brother convinced me though that they also love me and it was very liberating since all this time I was actually skeptical whether they just said that or if they meant it. My relationship with my dad is not the greatest and he knows that so I will be living with him in about a week or so since while I try to keep my feelings under check, I now realize I truly hate my dad my every fiber of my being. Just because I accepted his actions doesn't mean that I truly forgave what he did in my heart. So yeah living here is just the same as me not having a good mental health. I truly don't know whether or not this will do anything tbh but I do know that while I was okay with living like this, a part of me definitely also wanted more in life. My brother said that maybe living with him and seeing how family truly is will make me less emotionally numb again and I hope so too since while I do like my current self, there are definitely flaws with living the way I do.
Sorry for the long ramble lol but yeah the thing with the upload schedule is its mostly about the fact that I won't be having my own PC room only a room to sleep in there tbh since he doesn't really have extra rooms to spare since he got like 3 children and his in laws there. But I appreciate him letting me stay because as spacious as the house I'm in is it doesn't really have the warmth of family. I will still be able to record on my laptop though so no worries and I'll tell them that I'm recording these sort of games since I don't want the kids to actually be influenced by these games though if I'm recording an all ages one you might see my niece come and join me from time to time lol. But yeah I tried to run Amayui on my laptop but it just refuses, I'm guessing it has something to do with the fact that it's on windows 11 so I'll actually be focusing to finish Amayui this week before continiuing Baldr Sky. Lastly games that have too many emphasis on H scenes might be postponed for a while since as I said I don't really think it's appropriate if my nieces suddenly see me while those scenes are playing. Something like Baldr Sky is fine since it's very sparse but yeah gotta be more selective now, hope you guys understand! With that said I'll be recording some Amayui in a bit, cheers guys!
TLDR I'll be moving with my brother and leaving my PC behind and my laptop can't run Amayui so this week will be focusing on Amayui till we finish it. New LPs might need to have less H scenes than usual since my nieces will be coming to me quite often.
