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The Three Headed Titan Chapter 21 (Not Running Away)
🕑 Added 2025-06-07 22:03:59 +0000 UTCJon opened his eyes to endless white. For a moment, he thought he was back in the North, surrounded by fresh snow, but the ground beneath him was warm and granular. Sand stretched to the horizon in all directions, as pristine as a fresh snowfall but glowing with an inner luminescence he'd never seen before.
And there, impossibly distant yet somehow drawing his eye immediately, stood the tree of light. Its branches spread across the starless sky like veins of pure energy, pulsing with a rhythm that seemed to match his heartbeat.
"Ymir!" Jon called out, his voice swallowed by the vast emptiness. "Why am I here? What happened at the feast? My body... it felt like that night in White Harbor. Like I would..." He couldn't finish the thought, couldn't put words to the transformation that still haunted his dreams.
Silence answered him. Not even an echo returned his words.
Jon sighed, running his fingers through the strange sand. "What am I supposed to do here?"
Finding no answers in the unchanging landscape, he sat down, leaning back on his hands. As he shifted his weight backward, his shoulders met unexpected resistance – another person's back, warm and solid against his own.
Jon froze but didn't turn around. The stranger spoke first, his voice young, perhaps Jon's own age.
"What are you doing here?" the young man asked, his tone suggesting he didn't expect a real answer.
"I don't know," Jon replied honestly. "Why are you here?"
"Waiting," came the simple response.
"Waiting for what?"
The stranger's back shifted slightly against Jon's as he sighed. "I understand what you're going through," he said, ignoring the question. "The pain of love... it's different from other kinds of pain. Sweeter at first, which only makes it worse when it turns bitter."
Jon's breath caught in his throat. "Who did you lose?"
"Her name was Mikasa," the stranger said softly. The name was foreign to Jon's ears, like nothing he'd heard in Westeros. "I never even got to tell her I loved her. Funny how that haunts you more than the things you did say."
"Sometimes," the stranger continued, his voice carrying a strange mix of wisdom and pain, "I wonder if we're free to choose at all, or if we're just following paths already laid out for us."
"By the gods?" Jon asked.
A bitter laugh. "Gods, fate, destiny... whatever you want to call it. Does it matter? The weight feels the same."
Jon found himself nodding, though the other couldn't see it. "At White Harbor, when it happened... it felt like something else was in control. Like I was just watching."
"The rage takes over," the stranger agreed quietly. "It feels like drowning in fire, doesn't it? But you're still in there, somewhere. Still responsible for what happens."
"I don't remember most of it."
"Maybe that's a mercy." The stranger shifted slightly. "The memories come back eventually. Whether you want them or not."
They sat in silence for a moment, backs pressed together, before Jon spoke again. "Do you ever wonder if you're becoming something... monstrous?"
"We're all monsters to someone," the stranger replied. "The trick is remembering why you fight, who you fight for. The power itself isn't good or evil – it's what we choose to do with it."
"And if we don't choose it? If it's thrust upon us?"
"Then we keep moving forward," the stranger said, something fierce entering his tone. "Because that's all we can do. Even if you don't know what lies ahead, you have to keep moving forward."
"What am I supposed to do?" Jon asked, the weight of Wylla's memory heavy in his chest.
The stranger was quiet for a moment, as if carefully choosing his words. "Love," he finally said, "is like a flame that burns so bright it leaves you blind. When it's extinguished, you're left in darkness, stumbling, trying to remember how to see. But gradually, your eyes adjust. You start to notice the smaller lights around you – the stars, the moon, the gentle glow of dawn. They were always there, but you couldn't see them before because that one flame burned so bright."
Jon felt the truth of those words resonate within him. "But the darkness..."
"The darkness doesn't go away," the stranger continued. "It changes. Becomes something you carry with you, like a scar. And like a scar, it's both a reminder of what you lost and proof that you survived it." He paused, then added softly, "Sometimes the bravest thing we can do is allow ourselves to see those other lights, even if they'll never burn as bright as the one we lost."
Jon let the words sink in, feeling their truth resonate in his chest. "Your voice... do I know you?"
"Be careful who you trust," the young man said suddenly ignoring Jon's question, urgency replacing the melancholy in his tone. "There's not just one other... there are eight others."
Jon's eyes widened. He spun around, scrambling to his feet, but where the stranger had been sitting was only empty sand.
The ground began to tremble. Jon looked up, and up, and up – into a face that could only have emerged from the darkest of nightmares. A giant loomed over him, its features twisted into a demonic visage that somehow managed to look both bestial and intelligent. But what made Jon's heart stop was its eyes – one purple, one green, mirror images of his own.
"Who are you?" Jon demanded, voice shaking. "What are you? Is this what I—" He couldn't finish the question, couldn't voice his suspicion that this was what he had become that night in the woods.
The titan remained silent, its mismatched eyes boring into him with terrible familiarity.
Suddenly, the scene shifted, and Jon was back in the forest near White Harbor. But this time, he watched as an enormous hand – his hand? – wrapped around a wildling raider. The man's screams cut off in a wet crunch as fingers tightened, blood spraying across white snow.
"We are not alone," a voice whispered, seeming to come from everywhere and nowhere.
Jon's eyes snapped open. He was in his chamber in the Red Keep, sheets tangled around him, heart pounding as if he'd run for miles. The first light of dawn was just beginning to creep through his window, but the white sand and the tree of light still seemed to hover at the edges of his vision.
Eight others, he thought, the stranger's warning echoing in his mind. Not just one other Eldian in King's Landing, but eight.
Jon sat up, running a shaking hand through sweat-dampened hair. The dream was already starting to fade like snow melting in sunlight, but two things remained crystal clear: the young man's voice, so hauntingly familiar, and those mismatched eyes in the titan's face – his eyes.
"Who are you?" he whispered to the empty room, unsure if he was asking about the stranger, the titan, or himself.
Only silence answered, but it felt heavy. Somewhere in this world, eight others like him were walking the streets, hiding their own impossible secrets. Eight others who might be friend or foe, who might help him understand what he was becoming or use that knowledge against him.
Jon rose from his bed and went to the window, watching the sun rise over the city that suddenly seemed far more dangerous than before. "Eight others," he repeated softly, wondering if any of them had also dreamed of white sand and a tree made of light, if they too were waking to this same dawn with questions burning in their minds.
The Morning After
Jon stared at his plate, moving the eggs around with his fork without really seeing them. The sounds of breakfast conversation washed over him like distant waves, meaningless background noise to the storm in his thoughts.
Theon's braying laugh and Robb's deeper chuckle indicated some shared jest, but Jon couldn't focus enough to catch it. His mind kept returning to the balcony, to Dacey's lips against his, to the warmth of her body and then – the crushing guilt that had followed. The shame of his abrupt departure sat heavy in his chest, a leaden weight that made even breathing feel like an effort.
I should apologize, he thought, pushing a piece of bacon across his plate. But what would he say? 'I'm sorry I kissed you back and then ran away like a frightened boy'? 'I'm sorry I can't explain why I'm so broken'? 'I'm sorry that every time I feel something good, the memory of Wylla's death poisons it'?
A firm hand clasped his shoulder, startling him from his brooding. Jon looked up to find what felt like every eye at the table fixed on him with varying degrees of concern and amusement.
Heat crept up his neck. "Did something happen?"
"Other than you trying to murder your breakfast with your eyes?" Arya asked, grinning. "You've been glaring at that plate like it personally offended you. For at least ten minutes."
"There's... a lot on my mind," Jon mumbled.
Theon snickered. "Oh, I'm sure there is. Like a certain She-Bear you left waiting on the—"
A sharp look from Robb silenced whatever crude suggestion was coming next. Jon shot his brother a grateful glance, though the reminder of last night only intensified his shame.
"Jon," Lord Stark's voice cut through the tension, "the tourney officially begins tomorrow. Robb and Theon have already asked me to enter their names in the Tourney. Would you like me to enter yours as well?"
"That's not fair!" Arya protested immediately. "Why can't I enter? I'm better with a sword than Bran!"
"I want to enter too!" Bran piped up, his young face earnest. "I could win and become a knight, like in the stories!"
"Don't be stupid," Arya scoffed. "Winning a tourney doesn't make you a knight. Besides, you'd get crushed."
"Ser Jaime won the melee and King Aerys made him Kingsguard!" Bran countered.
Jon noticed their father's face tighten at the mention of the Mad King. The temperature around the table seemed to drop several degrees.
"Quiet down, both of you," Ned said firmly, before turning back to Jon. "Well?"
Jon's eyes flickered briefly to Lady Catelyn. Her face was a careful mask, but he could read the disapproval in the set of her mouth, the slight narrowing of her eyes. She didn't want the bastard representing the Stark name in front of the entire court.
Looking directly at his father, Jon straightened his shoulders. "Yes. I'd like to enter."
"Yes!" Robb's cheer broke the tension. "The wolves will show them how we fight in the North!"
The conversation turned technical after that, the three young men discussing strategy and comparing what they knew of potential opponents. Theon insisted the Sand Snake rumored to be in the city would participate in disguise. Robb was more concerned about the Hound's notorious brutality in the melee ring.
"What about the joust?" Robb asked eventually. "I'm not bothering with that prancing nonsense."
"Waste of time," Theon agreed. "Though maybe our expert horseman here should give it a try?" He nudged Jon with his elbow. "You're the best rider among us, Snow."
Jon's thoughts drifted to the prize traditionally awarded to the joust's victor – a crown of blue winter roses, to be placed upon the head of the winner's chosen Queen of Love and Beauty. Unbidden, an image formed in his mind: Dacey, proud and beautiful, winter roses crowning her dark hair, her eyes looking at him with warmth that made his heart race...
"I think I will," Jon heard himself say.
Theon whistled. "Bold! Well, I'll stick to what I know best. The archery contest has my name on it."
"Well, if Jon's entering both competitions, I suppose I'll have to win the melee to maintain family honor," Robb declared with a grin.
"Family honor?" Theon snorted. "You just want to impress the lady from the Reach who keeps watching you during meals."
"Which one?" Jon asked, momentarily distracted from his brooding.
"The one with the..." Theon made a vague gesture at his chest, earning a sharp look from Lady Stark.
"I saw you practicing yesterday," Robb said quickly, changing the subject. "The Hound was watching too. He looked like he wanted to murder you, Jon."
"When doesn't the Hound look like he wants to murder someone?" Theon quipped. "Though I heard he once killed three men in a melee. Just... crushed one's skull with his bare hands."
"Thank you, Theon," Jon said dryly. "That's very encouraging."
"Don't worry, Snow. If he kills you, I'll avenge you by putting an arrow through his other eye. The unscarred one."
"How noble of you," Robb laughed.
Meanwhile, at the other end of the table:
"Knights don't just win tourneys, Bran," Arya insisted, waving her fork for emphasis. "They have to be anointed with oils and say special vows and everything."
"But Ser Barristan won his first tourney when he was ten!" Bran protested. "He entered as a mystery knight and everything!"
"Yes, and he wasn't knighted until years later, stupid."
"Don't call your brother stupid," Sansa chided, then turned to their parents. "Mother, Father, might I spend the afternoon with Lord Loras Tyrell? He offered to show me the Highgarden roses they brought for the tourney."
"Oh, it's Ser Loras today?" Arya rolled her eyes. "Yesterday you couldn't stop talking about Prince Joffrey's golden hair. Which one are you trying to marry, or maybe you want both?"
"Arya!" Lady Stark's sharp tone cut through the air, but not before several snickers escaped from Robb and Theon's direction.
Sansa's face turned as red as her hair. "That's not... I merely wish to see the roses. The Prince will be there too, with his mother the Queen."
"At least wait until after the tourney," Arya suggested with mock solemnity. "See which one wins before you decide. Though if you want my opinion—"
"I don't," Sansa cut her off, turning back to their mother with pleading eyes.
Rhaenys Targaryen
Rhaenys lounged on the plush cushions scattered across the Martell chambers' floor, trying to focus on her cousins' chatter rather than the mystery that consumed her thoughts. The rooms were thick with the scent of Dornish incense – her uncle's attempt to mask other, more carnal aromas from his nightly activities.
A half-dressed woman giggled as she slipped out of Oberyn's chamber, followed shortly by an equally disheveled young man. Typical morning in the Martell quarters.
"Father certainly enjoyed himself last night," Nymeria commented dryly, not even bothering to look up from sharpening her blade.
"When doesn't he?" Tyene replied with a smile. "Though he better compose himself for today's official meeting with the King."
Rhaenys felt her jaw tighten at the mention of Robert Baratheon. She had seen him at the feast last night – fat, drunk, and pawing at serving girls. The sight had made her stomach turn.
"You should come with us to the Throne Room, Rhae," Arianne suggested, sprawled across a chaise in a way that made her generous curves particularly noticeable. "It promises to be entertaining at least."
Rhaenys shook her head. "I saw enough of the Usurper last night. Besides," she added with a meaningful look, "the Throne Room has too many eyes, too many spies. Better I stay away."
"Wise as always, cousin," Nymeria agreed. "Though I think we should check the Training Yard soon apperantly two days ago, some northern fighter gave the Kingslayer a real challenge."
"Oh yes!" Arianne sat up, eyes sparkling. "I heard servants talking about him, mainly the ladies, they said he has the most unusual eyes..."
But Rhaenys was barely listening again. Her mind kept returning to that strange moment at the feast, that surge of power when she'd brushed against someone in the crowd. The vision of white sand, the massive tree of light, and that woman calling her "Eldian"...
"Rhae!" Tyene threw a cushion at her head. "Where do you keep going? You've been distracted all morning."
"Just thinking about the tourney," Rhaenys lied smoothly. Years of living as someone else made lying easier than telling the truth.
"Thinking about which handsome knight you'll favor?" Arianne teased. "That northern one is competing in both the melee and the joust. I heard he rides like he was born in the saddle."
"I have little interest in northern warriors," Rhaenys replied coolly. While she didn't hate the North as she did the Lannisters and Baratheons, she couldn't forget their role in destroying her family. "Let them keep their cold and their honor."
"More for me then," Arianne purred. "I wouldn't mind warming up a northerner's bed."
"You wouldn't mind warming anyone's bed," Nymeria retorted, ducking the pillow Arianne threw in response.
"Speaking of beds," Tyene said, "I heard the most interesting rumor about our dear cousin Quentyn..."
The conversation devolved into gossip and laughter, but Rhaenys remained partially removed from it. Her purple eyes, so like her father's, stared unseeing at the elaborate Dornish tapestries adorning the walls.
Somewhere in this castle had caused that strange thing to happen last night, it had been a skin to skin contact, but why did it happen? What did it mean? Did the other one exprience the same thing? Who was he or her? Rhaenys knew it would be pointless to try and find this myserious person, she had no idea who could have been, and is not like she could go out there and start touching everyone that she comes across.
"Rhae," Ellaria's voice came from the doorway, warm and concerned. "You look troubled, child."
Rhaenys managed a smile for her uncle's paramour. "Just tired from the feast."
"Hmm." Ellaria settled beside her, running gentle fingers through Rhaenys's dark hair – so like her mother's, one of the few blessings that made her disguise easier to maintain. "Your uncle worries about you, you know. Says you've been distracted since last night."
"Uncle Oberyn worries too much," Rhaenys deflected. "When he's not occupied with more... pleasant diversions."
As if to emphasize her point, another giggling couple stumbled out of Oberyn's chambers.
"Father!" Nymeria called out. "Don't you have a king to meet?"
Oberyn appeared, looking remarkably composed despite his apparent activities. His eyes found Rhaenys immediately, carrying a silent question. She gave him a subtle nod – their private signal that all was well.
"Indeed I do," he replied, adjusting his robes. "Though I'm in no hurry to bow before the Usurper."
"Try not to start a war today, father," Tyene said sweetly. "At least wait until after the tourney."
Oberyn's laugh was sharp as a blade. "No promises, my dear. No promises."
As the others prepared to accompany Oberyn to the Throne Room, Rhaenys remained behind, her mind returning to the mystery that plagued her. She needed answers, but more than that, she needed caution. One wrong move, one slip of her disguise, and everything her uncle had worked to protect would crumble.
She touched her palm where the shadowcat had clawed her, remembering how the wounds had healed with steam. Whatever was happening to her, whatever an "Eldian" was, she would have to solve this puzzle carefully.
After all, she was a dragon playing at being a snake, in a den of lions and stags. She couldn't afford to make mistakes.
Jon Snow
Jon found Dacey in a secluded area of the training yard, practicing forms with her mace in the late morning light. She moved like a dancer. For a moment, he just watched, gathering his courage.
She noticed him, of course. Dacey noticed everything. But she continued her practice, neither acknowledging him nor sending him away. Jon took that as a sign to approach.
"Your footwork has improved since last time," he said, immediately wishing he'd opened with something better.
Dacey completed her form before turning to face him. "Did you come here to critique my maceplay, Snow?"
"No," Jon admitted. "I came to apologize. For last night."
She put down her mace, studying him with those keen eyes that seemed to see right through him. "Which part? The kiss, or running away from it?"
"The running away part." Jon moved closer, close enough to see the slight sheen of sweat on her brow from training. "The kiss... I don't regret that part."
"No?" A hint of smile touched her lips. "Could have fooled me."
Jon ran a hand through his hair, frustrated with his inability to find the right words. "I'm not... I'm not good at this, Dacey."
"At what? Talking? Kissing? Both seemed fine to me, until you bolted like a spooked horse."
Despite the jest in her tone, Jon could hear the hurt underneath. He'd put that there.
"At letting myself feel things," he said quietly. "Since Wylla..."
"Ah." Dacey's expression softened. She moved to a nearby bench and sat, patting the space beside her. "Come. Tell me about her."
Jon hesitated, then joined her. They sat in silence for a moment, watching the sun paint the clouds in shades of purple and gold.
"She taught me to dance," he said finally. "Did you know that? Everyone in White Harbor thought it was improper – the Lord's daughter teaching a bastard to dance. But Wylla didn't care about proper." A small smile tugged at his lips. "She didn't care about a lot of things other people thought she should care about."
"She sounds remarkable," Dacey said softly.
"She was." Jon stared at his hands. "And then she died."
Jon thought of the wildling's blade, of the power that had exploded from him afterward. But he couldn't tell Dacey that part. Couldn't tell her about the monster he'd become, the lives he'd taken in that form.
"I don't know how to..." he struggled to find the words. "When I'm with you, I feel... but then I remember her, and it feels like betrayal."
Dacey was quiet for a long moment. When she spoke, her voice was gentle but firm. "Do you think Wylla would want you to punish yourself forever? To never allow yourself happiness again?"
"No," Jon admitted. "She'd probably hit me for being so stubborn about it."
That earned a genuine laugh from Dacey. "I like her more and more."
Jon turned to look at her properly. The setting sun caught the angles of her face, strong and beautiful in a way so different from Wylla's delicate features. Yet both shared that same fearless spirit, that refusal to let the world tell them who they should be.
"Last night," he said, "I had a strange dream. Someone told me that love is like a flame that burns so bright it leaves you blind. And when it's gone, you're left in darkness, stumbling, trying to remember how to see."
Dacey's eyes held his, patient, understanding.
"But they also said that gradually, your eyes adjust. You start to notice the smaller lights that were always there – the stars, the moon, the dawn." Jon's voice grew softer. "They said sometimes the bravest thing we can do is allow ourselves to see those other lights, eventually, we will find another light just as bright."
"Wise words," Dacey murmured.
"My father once told me something similar, about my aunt Lyanna. He said grief doesn't end, it changes. Becomes part of who you are." Jon swallowed hard. "But it shouldn't become all that you are."
"And is that what you want?" Dacey asked. "To be more than your grief?"
Jon looked at her – really looked at her. At the strength in her shoulders and the gentleness in her eyes. At the way she waited for him. At all the small lights he'd been too blind to see.
"Yes," he whispered.
This time, when he leaned in to kiss her, there was no hesitation. Her lips met his with equal certainty, one hand coming up to cup his cheek while the other gripped his shoulder. Jon pulled her closer, pouring everything he couldn't say into the kiss – his gratitude for her patience, his admiration for her strength, his hope for something new.
When they finally parted, Dacey's eyes were bright with something that looked like joy. "Well," she said, slightly breathless, "that was worth waiting for."
Jon pressed his forehead against hers, allowing himself to simply feel this moment. The warmth of her skin, the steady beat of her heart, the way her fingers had tangled in his hair.
"I can't promise I won't still struggle sometimes," he said honestly.
"I don't need promises, Jon." Dacey's voice was soft but sure. "I just need you to be honest with me. To not run away when things get difficult."
"I can do that," he said, and meant it.
Comments
Thomas Rayner
No he doesn't mean it cause he's to stupid and self pitying to understand🤮🤮
Thomas Rayner
Hidden prince being high profile in a place surrounded by people who would cruelly murder children to get what they want what Coul go wrong?,this high profile attitude is completely different to how northerners should be especially house stark
