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Sexy posts Will soon resume!

Thank you to everyone who has been so patient waiting for my caregiver to get back… her pregnancy went all right but her baby has trouble breathing so he is on oxygen 24 seven. I can't see her coming back full-time, but I'm going to ask her this week if she wants to come over on the weekend to help me with some photo shoots!I know some of you were requesting to see my backside, Believe m...

Love poem

I want to hold the hand inside youBut I also want to be fucked every day.I picture you leaning above meYour shoulders almost subconsciously broadening from the power I'm giving youBecause all of my power is gone, and I'm weakI am a little candle melting into nothing by some fierce flame and I am in love with the heat.I'm in love with you, but the way I say it isn't with wordsIt&#39...

Singing Lana Del Rey

It's been such a big week for me. I can't discuss everything, but a lot of what happened this week has to do with deciding my future. For the sake of everyone, I really hope it turns out OK. For now, I'm so tired…e

I'm so exhausted

Something really BIG happened this week. It involved at me talking for about five hours basically getting interviewed. I'll be able to share more later. It makes me a little more excited about my future.

Stoned and sexy songS

You opened 1 million doors,All I can say is that I adore you///I'm getting deposed on Monday and Tuesday, and I'm terrified that I'm going to just break down right in the middle of it. Talking about my accident and injury is so emotionally painful. Trying to distract myself on the weekend and make sure I eat enough because I know that those two days my appetite is going to go away. Sen...

New massage therapist!!

Finally somebody who understands what I need in a massage! Bonus, he's a Reiki practitioner as well and does intraoral massage… which I am definitely going to want because I have massive TMJ from stress and trauma.

Baby if you wanna leave, come to California be a freak like me too

Here's me singing bellyache and freak.:DAlso a little update on my caregiver who usually helps me with my erotic Photoshoot which have definitely lessened and taken away subscribers in the process, which I apologize for but it's kind of out of my hands. Anyway, she had her baby and turns out he has a hole in his heart. He's at Children's Hospital on oxygen constantly and they will ...

The other day when it was actually warm out

Denver, I'll be very glad when I say goodbye

Look out mountain!

… and look out for the people who park on the white lines lol…

American whore

Lana's new song has me dying to do a sexy photo shoot listening to her new album. Where art thou, oh brave photographer?

Easily

…” I'm the sweetest dumb thing you ever saw… Easily suddenly you don't know me at all… easily three years later and now you want to call… easily eeee “6 GrimesThe truth is, unless I'm on my period, I ain't got no panties on. So stop turning me on please.(just kidding, except the no panties rule it's true)…And it's really not fair or useful being this wet all t...

Podcast episode one: when polyamory gets confusing& what I think about plant medicine used as therapy

Finally!!!From polyamory, to nonalcoholic wine, to how I feel about using plant medicine instead of or along with therapy… hopefully somewhere along the way this is educational or somewhat interesting or amusing.Happy,e

Feeling grateful;)

Thanks to all my scandalous folks who are being patient with me while my explicit content is slower than usual. My caregiver who helps me with those photo shoots and videos will be back soon!! In the meantime I'll be as naughty as I can without scaring off the new ones…My body feels so much better now that I have weekend care and the two new girls are so nice about helping me with range of m...

Aliens built the pyramids

He holds me like I mean something without me doing anything.I feel the only kind of peace I feel when I am held by a valley looking out on the waves.Words are like encrypted hieroglyphs on the pyramidsWe don't even try to make sense of them now, all we do is marvel.I know that he's just here to play with meBut I can imagine that my name meanS the world to him or maybe a couple pyramids.He&...

Singing on the ventilator!

I've been told by other people who use ventilators that if I continue to sing I might lose my voice, but I feel like it's the opposite: it seems to strengthen my voice. And, it's my cheapest therapy option. Music makes everything better;)Big thank you and welcome to all my recently subscribed patrons! You all keep my little heart a float.Love,e.

Longing

There's a place I go in my dreams where I am in no painMovement is effortless and there is no shameLove feels like the sunNot a dangerous gameAnd when I wake up, I'm sad to be awake. There's a kind of loss that's so hard to explain.I know I should be doing, being, becoming, but the panic attacks get worse when I try to get better. I feel like a stranger in the body of a robot that ...

Thinking of getting my nipples pierced

I don't promote self harm, but I keep thinking about piercing my nipples. I've had a weird weekend filled with pleasure, depression, and straight up exhaustion, and I wonder if when people do self harm it's in an attempt to transfer their mental pain into physical pain. I don't feel that much on my boobs anyway, so… because of all the distraction over the weekend I did not Record...

I wrote some poetry over the weekend and trained a new caregiver

I used to stand in the river where the pyrite glistened like goldCalifornia girl with unwashed maneTangled in the sun.Careless with all the love I got to holdNever paying heed to anyone.Trauma blocks the neural pathways leading meBack to that afternoon, daughter of JulyI'm paralyzed fighting to remember youAnd the sound of the water and the kind unclouded Sky.I'm a fire sign better suited ...

I'm changing my mind

… this coming Monday I've decided to message my doctor about trying out a certain anti-anxiety/depression med. One of my caregiver is recommended it, it's not a typical one so I figure well at least try it out.I can't exactly act on my suicidal thoughts, but the voices in my head have become so strong I feel like I am going to self sabotage in one way or another, and at the very leas...

You got a fetish for my love

… I push you out and you come right back…Don't see a point in blaming…If I were you, I'd do me…

Bbygirl

My lawyer says I can't tell the whole story yet. But when I do, you can be sure that every fucking detail Will be aired out to dry.Done being a warrior princess for a while, I have retired and become a Kawaii angel. My nervous system is so accustomed to trauma and defending itself, I have to remind myself that I'm not in fight or flight mode anymore. I'm safe. Everything is going to be...

Lip-synching and vaping AGAIN

Some of my favorite sassy songs…The past week has not been easy, because my caregiver had a beautiful baby so I don't have a weekend caregiver for a couple weeks while we train some new girls! The fact that there are new people wanting to work as a is a fucking miracle.My body just gets really sore when I don't get stretched and when my parents are taking care of me on Sunday I'm usu...

Lip-synching and overthinking

Will somebody please just fucking HOLD me?Not just anybody.* SIGHS*Why am I always so goddamn emotional when I start catching feels.

I'm a bad girl, I'm a sad girl

Don't ask…

My Amazon wish list

:) here is my wish list for those of you who are asking!I guess my birthday is kind of coming up… March 21 … and then Valentine's Day, which is my favorite because even if I'm not with anybody it's such a brilliant excuse to get people flowers and chocolate. Why can't every holiday be like that??