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I've been away
Both physically and mentally.But I'll be back. I'm coming back.I'm just.....exhausted right now.It feels as if I've died in little ways over the last few years. They're all adding up..But i wanna live. So I gotta figure out how to rest while still working and nurturing my creativity.Advice and kind words are welcome. ♡Anyway, I took these while off visiting family and things....
New Wip Wednesday!
Meet Lil Sherman.He's a lil lightning bug dude. I'm still deciding where to go with him but I wanted to share bc I'm stuck and he's cute and Cereal helped me name him yesterday. Shout out to my friend CerealSensei for being so cool and taking me and my shenanigans seriously. 💛I'm using acrylic paint/pens and modeling paste so far. And I know it's not Wednesday.Thanks for...
Today...
I started streaming today, 5 years ago. My initial plan was to stop after today. But I.. need a little more time.... Enjoy some clouds.
detroit, mi • yesterday
I'm in Detroit for a few days with Blerdz Unite 💛✨here's the sky yesterday.
Orts pt 2
Hello again.Been a minute, I know.... 😮💨I'm here to talk about two paintings," just bloom" and "silas"...So. Starting with just bloom. This was the first piece that I did when I got back to my grandparents house. I did it with oil pastel on canvas. I just wanted to see what oil pastel would do. I've never used oil paint before. And I wanna work up to that eventuall...
What's your fav drink?
Mine is called a Gold Rush - Four Roses bourbon, lemon, and honey. Made at Proof in Charleston, SC, this is the drink I'd have before and after a show, a shift, or whatever. It's refreshing and soothes my throat the same time. I painted this during Everything_CUSH's paint & sip stream yesterday. I/we had a grand time. 10/10 would definitely do again. I miss feeling able to art without ...
FRC Robotics~
My siblings' team competed this weekend. It's been fun so far. Have some clouds. Yesterday was very rainy... Today is much better.
Orts
So... I started this post at the beginning of March. Like March 2nd. My alt text and captions were kinda hilarious. That's all gone now. I'm not gonna try to replicate it. Let's just take a moment to morn that potential bit of hilarity. . . . . . . ☺️One more because this has happened more than once and it really hurts my feelings . . . . . . . . . . . .. . . . .. . ... .Ok. So --I...
I'M BACK
I got kicked out of my account for some reason but I'm back now. I went out on an adventure today so have some sky and water. And a 9/11 memorial.. 💛
The flower
I did this with oil pastels and acrylic paint pens. I dunno the name yet. Oil pastels are fun... Might do another i get back home.Started it over the weekend. Dunno if it's finished yet.
😅
hi.here's a free cloud.I've moved physically but I'm still unpacking. I also did Something to my computer that needs to be fixed before I can do anything strenuous on it (like streaming/gaming).So far, I've started two paintings, chosen another pen name option, and done a stovetop cookie experiment. I'll post them.I know I'm really behind on stuff... Hopefully I can get my ...
Heaviness of Expression
SOI drew something yesterday.Remember my poem, "Danger"? The one with the push & pull, paddleball imagery? (It's ok. I'll put it below. 🫶🏾)Well I drew it. And promptly passed out. This is gonna take a while. But I'm doing it. And I'm proud of myself for it. Anyway, here's "Danger":I’m in dangerCaught up in your currentI keep gettin’ pulled back inI try...
Seabrook Island, SC - 21 Jan 2024
i worked this weekend & had a really fun time. This go round we had CC + The Adelitas led by drummer/composer/educatorDr. Colleen Clark, featuring vocalistAndrea Chavarro, trumpeterRachel Therrien, clarinetistVirginia MacDonald, pianistArcoiris Sandoval, and bassistMimi Jones. I highly recommend checking them all out.and while you're at it - pls pls listen to this beautiful cover of Black Hole...
1/11 1:11
I got this yesterday in the drive thru. I'm glad my phone decided to cooperate and save this. I planned to take more but it was gone by the time I'd gotten my food. So I say that to say ....Opportunities wait for no one. And it seems we gotta make our own now. Especially if there are things we wanna see in the world or in our lifetime. Things will only happen if we make them happen. They&#...
Hey--
1/11/2024It's 1/11. So much has already happened. Happy New Year. I'm 30 now. Thank you for the birthday love and well wishes. 💛I'm gonna be honest - I'm terrified. My timer is starting to ring and I feel... unprepared still. I'm not done cooking yet. Please. Give me 5 more minutes. There's still a little chill in the pit of my belly, my heart is still thawing. My hands ...
4 - (over)whelm
(over)whelmplease don't touch me i'm really cold and feelin’ small i just want to lay watch this wall no response to texts or answerin’ callsNo.please don't touch me i don't want any hugs please don't smother me w love and cause my vision to become a blur of…sorta kinda wanna disappear i will still exist so please don’t feari’m just overwhelmed and wanna be away from ...
3 - sunrise
sunrisei love thatmy friendsknow mewell enoughto remind meto look upat the skythat helps merememberto breathebeen kinda breathless latelythe sky wasso orangei gasped*this was originally a post called "orange" but i didn't feel right about the poem at the time. so here it is. complete. and now called "sunrise" 💛
2 - Distraction
DistractionI need another distraction.At a time where I'd rely on my words to help me express and understand what I'm feeling…my mind is empty. Save for a decree of three words.No. Four.Three shmall ones whose weight togethercarry much more thunk.And the last is your name.Damn.I love the way your name feels on my lips, tastes on my tongue…Such a shame I gotta say it into empty space. L...
I'm breathing. Are you?
I finally submitted my last final. It was late. I hope I still get credit. 🙏🏾I'm exhausted. 😂The poems will continue to post over the next few days. I'm still writing the post about my Annual Cultural Enrichment Museum trip. There were two exhibitions but luckily I got a good few photos before my phone died. It is a *lot* though so I'll need to go through and choose the best b...
1 - Danger | Moth
DangerI’m in dangerCaught up in your currentI keep gettin’ pulled back inI try to walk awayLeave you alone.You release your hold…But then you snatch me back.When will you stop playin’ paddleball with my heart?_____________MothMy brain hurts when I think of youWhy can't I get you off my mind?My heart breaks at the thought of quittin' youLeavin’ you behindMy eyes are leakin’, thr...
hi
*nervous chuckle*So last night at 12:48am I submitted my final project (late) and at 4:30somethingam I completed all the crocheted goodies. I can finally take one deep breath.The project - I took Creative Writing this term. It was very very necessary. I remembered how much I missed writing. Not just songs or poetry (though that's what I choose to do for my final) but writing as a whole.And I h...
Thank you -
For your loveFor your supportFor your patronageFor the good vibesFor being
*soothe*
i miss the beach.this was from June 2020.true story.and i got to see & hug him yesterday. 💛
10/30
Late night car singingGod Herself - Madison McFerrin
Life update
Hey. I owe y'all some posts. I've been bogged down in homework, trying to finish recovering and get my past due work completed. While also traveling. Uh.. I'm exhausted. 😅Stay tuned for:More clouds1 or 2 singing vids1 soundcloud related updateJournal related stuffTwitchConAnnual Museum trip3 literary works (poems n stuffs)1, maybe 2 cosplay postsAnd I completely forgot but I need to...
HAPPY HALLOWEEN
I tried being a vampireBut my teeth wouldn't stickBecause my mouth isToo warm andMy teeth too wetNeed new teeth lol
16 June 2023
idk why I was breathing like that but LOOK AT the clouds
A Secret Gift!
My aunt Donna commissioned me to do a painting for one of my uncles. He turned 50 years old last month. I couldn't post about it bc even though he doesn't frequent social media much. And... Well, I didn't give myself time to post much. 😂Anyway, it's a strip style watercolor of him going to a ramen shop while overseas. He plays upright bass and loves ramen (& other nerd stuff) an...
I CAN POST VIDEOS NOW
YEEEEHHHHHHHHHHHHthis was from last week. Or maybe the week before? Idk. Sky was showin out tho. And since I can post videos here now... i'll be adding more regular cloud content at the Peace level! My phone is full of these. Some with commentary and/or SINGING.Weeee...
cosplay highlight: Yosemite Sam
I was chillin in my car one evening. I tied my twists over my lip to make a moustache for a silly photo. And...then I realized: i could cosplay as Yosemite Sam. So I did. The very next day.Brought me joy. Hope it brings you joy too.💛
